snapshots of an idle mind

September 28, 2005

still waiting

Filed under: Uncategorized — sassinak @ 12:28 pm


i’m still stuck in text browser land so i’m borrowing TnA’s computer for a bit so i can post something. it’s really freaking frustrating working in a text browser because you can so easily delete whatever you’re typing and there’s really no way to get it back. It is, of course, much better than nothing!

Still it will be nice to have a working computer and things like image editing capabilities on my home computer. Trying to edit images on the web is like trying to type through molasses. Hmmm lovely mental image that *grin*

damm TnA’s connection is fucking slow!

I’ve been really enjoying the comments my crap post generated. I find it interesting how many of the men I know have fond memories of an older woman that they’ve dated. I have definite fond memories of the men that I dated who were significantly older and yet somehow it feels different. I think it’s that leftover 50s prejudice.

What’s funny is that I don’t feel remotely judgemental when I see relationships where the woman is significantly older. I just assume that the guy is extraordinary or that they share some common passion or whatever. So it’s not that I mind such things… I think really it’s the line at 25.

I once said to a man I know that I felt that dating a man under 30 would be like taking candy from a baby. I’ve since reconsidered that and dropped the age to about 23 because after that I think it’s a fair fight. *grin*

Seriously with most teenagers it would be like leading a donkey by the carrot above his nose. I truly feel that it would be so easy to manipulate them that it would almost be criminal. Not the extraordinary 19 year old of course, he’s so self possessed that he is truly the exception that proves the rule. That guy may be nineteen but he’s a man.

Perhaps that’s it. It’s not about numbers at all but about man versus boy.

I have met at least one person recently who is in his thirties and yet is fully still a boy waiting for the world to provide his fun and excitement. He’s not proactive at all and he’s definetely not going after his life, he’s just letting it pass him by. [damm now Sam Roberts is stuck in my head… ‘i feel my life is passing me by…’] Not to mention that he lacks (self) awareness to an extent that’s hard to imagine if you’re as aware as I am.

And I’ve met at least one teenager who is out there grabbing life with both hands and not sitting back and waiting at all. So although the one is 12 years older than the other it’s really the teenager who is the man.

So I guess the numbers really aren’t relevant, it’s about relative maturity. In general the way to bet involves older beating out younger but I certainly know men in their 40s who are still children in everything but name. Sitting around talking about what life owes them.

Life doesn’t owe you shit motherfucker, get out there and live it!

I’m sort of tempted not to post this yet just so i can see if the comments continue as they have been but I don’t think that will work. I do notice that it’s getting harder to post every day. It’s easy when you’re cheerful and busy but harder when you’re not doing as much. It’s funny that I say that because I’m crazy busy right now.

Hubris and I are off to do routes this evening and I’m totally stoked. There’s a couple of routes that I climbed but didn’t flash and a couple of others that I’m like two moves from finishing. I feel I’ve just had a bit of a shift so I’m thinking those babies are mine.

I’m really happy with my body right now, it just did one of those shifts and now I’m feeling and looking a lot better and I feel taller and lighter. Also my shadow is looking better. don’t laugh I’m serious.

My classes are on an upswing. I’m over ten classes a week now and I only need about five more to be able to put the occasional penny away. As it is I should be able to afford my life as long as I act really poor. I’d like to get enough more classes that I can drop the three I teach on the weekends and have a weekend life that allows me to get out of town again!

Still it’s better than I expected and I’m starting at a new club that plans to add more classes shortly. Cool beans right?

Off to clean/teach/climb, hope y’all are having a wonderful day.



  1. I do believe you have a huge rack ;-)

    Comment by Van! — September 28, 2005 @ 2:43 pm | Reply

  2. awesome that your classes are multiplying!!!
    i love this age topic! i have (at 27) had a fun little thing with a 22 year old and at 30 am in love with a 41 yearold! life is FUN!!!!!!!!!
    i say 23 is definatley a fair fight- hee hee!

    Comment by tania — September 28, 2005 @ 4:34 pm | Reply

  3. i once dated a 38 year old who sweared he’d done so much for the world and he got nothing in return. he was so bitter. i told him the exact thing that you said…life doesn’t owe you shit. funny how that happens :)

    Comment by Teresa Naomi — September 28, 2005 @ 4:54 pm | Reply

  4. congratulations, you have eyes van.

    tania: me too me too… isn’t it funny what happens in our lives that we would never have expected? i’m so glad for you and P :)

    who wants a fair fight? *evil grin*

    treesa: word babe :)
    also how can a guy get that old and still be that clueless?

    Comment by sassinak — September 28, 2005 @ 6:01 pm | Reply

  5. Life owes me $13.85. I have a fucking receipt!

    Comment by DZER — September 28, 2005 @ 7:42 pm | Reply

  6. Life doesn’t owe you shit motherfucker, get out there and live it!

    That is the best quote that I’ve heard all day. Great post, very insightful (as usual).

    Life doesn’t owe anyone anything. We all start out the same though some of us have more (or less) than others. Take it and run with it. From a poor family where no one graduated from high school? Then make it a point to finish it. No one go to college? Then go for it and finish it. Congrats, you’ve moved yourself up a level.

    Now living. I listened to someone today tell me her retirement plans. Why wait? Yeah, you could get hit by a bus or something. Live while you can still use all of your limbs…I can imagine trying to learn to surf/skate at 65. People do it, but it’s rare.

    Good one on the moves/classes.

    Oh, you are still the hotness. :)

    Comment by castufari — September 28, 2005 @ 7:55 pm | Reply

  7. dzer: *snicker* you can redeem that for food stamps you know?

    cast: it’s really funny. I don’t feel insightful or like I’m some more aware person or like I have anything to say. And yet I do and I am. It’s strange to wrap my brain around this person i’m becoming… fun getting to know her too :)

    insightful as usual… you’re sweet. also i’m about where i was when i met you i think… no wait, i’m a bit thinner and more muscular :) anyway, i don’t really get these people that watch their lives like it’s a television show and someone else is writing the script. and i’m a fatalist. i’m always cussing at the universe and thanking it and stuff. and yet i go out there and do things every single day… and i don’t stop. it seems so easy to just sit on the couch and watch tv but where does that get you?


    Comment by sassinak — September 29, 2005 @ 12:56 am | Reply

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