snapshots of an idle mind

October 17, 2005

i’ve been remiss

Filed under: Uncategorized — sassinak @ 1:22 pm

I have not been keeping up with my contractual obligation to myself to post to my blog every day. In fact I’ve missed several days lately. In my defence I’ve been doing things like teaching at 8am or using my blogging time to talk with my sister [yes, we’re gossipping about boys. yes, it’s fun] or drink with my best friend or… and since I suddenly have to get up before 9am something like 11 days out of 12 it’s hard to think ‘oh it’s just half an hour’ and make myself stay awake.

Also the closing eyes make it hard to read what I type.

So, I think I will have to start blogging in the afternoon instead of at midnight. Which sucks because I think the flow is better at night since I’m more open and less willing to self censor. Less able also. Seriously, ask any friend of mine how scattered I get when I’m really tired *grin*

It’s like my brain takes a tracking vacation or something.

Still I can’t complain about this, I’m suddenly teaching 15 hours a week on a SLOW week and that’s only going to increase because the hot doctor will refer me clients until I tell him to stop. This shit is FUN you guys. I have to use my brain a lot and I get to see people transformed because of what I teach them.

Frankly it’s awe-inspiring and even more amazing that *I* did it. [Speaking of, lsd did that thing about your pelvis improve the climbing at all?] I made these folks feel better and I did it in an hour and I did it from my heart and with integrity.

And I didn’t have to work in an office or sit at a desk to do it.

I can’t believe how fortunate I am to get to live this life and I can’t believe how much I love this job. I’ve never had to work so hard to get something to work in my life. In fact just about every job that I tried before this one sort of fell into my lap. It’s almost like the Universe wanted me to get a pile of possibilities out of my system and fast. Like it wanted me to be able to recognize that this really is my thing. And then it made me prove I really wanted this by tossing all sorts of obstacles at me.

Long story short? I’m fully blessed.

Fully busy too!

The only problem with all of this blessing the Universe is heaping on me? Yeah I’m SOOO sleepy! I get to sleep in on SATURDAY this week and then again Monday which should put me back together soon but…

There’s also a little piece of me that’s waiting for the other shoe to drop. That thinks there really is only so much positive energy to go around and I’m using all mine up. That piece is probably not really remembering just how bad years on end of my childhood were and it’s definetely not remembering the really crappy couple of years after my accident.

Still, I’m looking for the other shoe.

I’m also looking to reclaim my weekends at Chirstmas and if all goes according to plan it will ACTUALLY HAPPEN! *dance of joy*

I so can’t wait to have weekends again.

Speaking of Christmas. My parents live in Italy and they really want me to come and visit. Enough so that they’re offering cash. The thing here is that although I love Italy and I dearly love spending time with my parents there are other factors.

For one thing if I do take time off I do NOT get paid. I’m self employed, if I don’t work I don’t earn. Since several of the places I work for are Jewish it’s likely that I’ll be expected to work Christmas (like i did last year) and since it falls on a Sunday that means I’ll be teaching and also that finding a sub is almost impossible. Still I’ll ask around the places I teach and see what’s up and maybe hit Italy and the Italian *FOOD* for a week if I figure I can swing it.

Weird concept, it’s the first time I’ve been invited in years.

Hrm, looking at the calendar I note a likelihood of three or four days off for New Years though… hey hubris… want to go someplace? As long as there’s beer and maybe some green I’m wherever!

Also let’s see:
I’ve been tagged by dzer so here goes:
23rd post 5th sentence:

– my sister moved back to the family farm and is thus around a LOT more :)

in a post that was basically catch up since it’s called oops i forgot my blog

and I tag… geeze who HAS 23 posts that dzer didn’t get already… uh… stoned.nerd (my favourite singaporean), natalia (my favourite english nerd), teresa cause she rocks and elle cause she’s funny as hell.

Okay that’s it, happy Monday y’all!



  1. sometimes it’s good to take a break from writing.

    Comment by factory_peasant — October 17, 2005 @ 4:06 pm | Reply

  2. Erm..the ner is confused…do I have to go to my 23rd post and pick sentence #5?

    And…can you syber train me? I need to stretch and do some exercise.


    Comment by Natalia — October 17, 2005 @ 4:15 pm | Reply

  3. FUCK…cyber even… neurons are gone.


    Comment by Natalia — October 17, 2005 @ 4:16 pm | Reply

  4. don’t worry so much about the other shoe … and I’m with nat … can you fix me over the Net? LOL

    Comment by DZER — October 17, 2005 @ 7:25 pm | Reply

  5. well dzer there’s been a LOT of other shoes in the last few years…

    nat: yeah 23rd post, 5th sentence

    well, let me think about cyber pilates… it’s tough because i can’t *see* you…

    Comment by sassinak — October 17, 2005 @ 11:25 pm | Reply

  6. k, I’m pissed that no one tagged me. Thanks.

    Comment by Everything nice — October 18, 2005 @ 10:39 am | Reply

  7. congratulations on your blessing, and your (maybe) trip to Italy.

    Comment by Everything nice — October 18, 2005 @ 10:39 am | Reply

  8. hey bubbles no being pissed, i figured T would get you… i try to mix the people i tag so tehy still have someone to tag… that said… do it anyway!

    also, yeah… italy… we’ll see :)

    Comment by sassinak — October 18, 2005 @ 11:25 am | Reply

  9. I had no idea you thought I thought that of you.

    I don’t. and if i gave the impression that i did then I struggle to see where.

    I responded to both of your comments and I’m sick with upset over this.

    just an FYI

    Comment by Everything nice — October 18, 2005 @ 12:07 pm | Reply

  10. damm i hate text sometimes… i was TOTALLY responding to that ass and not to yourself… please don’t be sick, if i thought you thought that of me do you really think i’d read your blog six times a day???

    Comment by sassinak — October 18, 2005 @ 12:11 pm | Reply

  11. I think that you two thought that the other had thought what you were thinking they had thought …

    … so … who else is nekkid?

    Comment by DZER — October 18, 2005 @ 12:40 pm | Reply

  12. i’m in climbing clothes… and i’m taking my overstretched tendons climbing with a nice girl from the maritimes…

    that’s me making new friends everywhere and still noone to boink!


    dzer: girls are good at misreading… but we’re also good at working it out

    Comment by sassinak — October 18, 2005 @ 1:02 pm | Reply

  13. cheers for the link, sass!!!

    breaks are good. waaayyy good.

    Comment by Stoned.Nerd — October 18, 2005 @ 2:06 pm | Reply

  14. In all honesty Sass,

    I haven’t had a whole lot of time to climb since I’ve been home. I have gone a couple of times and had one outstanding session and one that I won’t talk about. But I am sure that the whole pelvic balance issue can only help me in the long run (even if in the short term some recalabrations must be made before any gain is seen).

    Comment by Light Strikes A Deal — October 18, 2005 @ 3:53 pm | Reply

  15. nerd: anytime dude… you know you’re the first one that linked me ever?

    lsd: hey fair enough… it sounds like your life has gotten a touch out of hand in the last few weeks…

    i’m curious to see what happens anyway…

    Comment by sassinak — October 18, 2005 @ 7:45 pm | Reply

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