snapshots of an idle mind

October 25, 2005

weather veins…

Filed under: Uncategorized — sassinak @ 3:47 pm

okay seriously this has got to stop. everyone i know is feeling shitty EXCEPT the ones in relationships that were started in the last month or two.


they’re depressed. they’re maudlin. they’re dying of alcohol poisoning (hi elle!), they’re broke, i’m broke, they’re not dating, they are dating, they’re defeated, they’re hopeless, their houses are robbed, they’re deleting their blogs, their marriages are ending or their relationships are dying or they’re near suicidal or whatfuckinever.

and you know something? i care deeply about every person i referenced above (but it’s no one else’s business who the unlinked folks are) and I want every single one of them to feel safe and comfortable telling me the things that are happening in their lives or their state of mind. Happy OR sad. Cheery OR angry. Optomisitc OR pessimistic.

Really I don’t care. i just want my cared for folks to feel safe telling me anything.

That said. Dudes I think we’re on some kind of downward spiral of reinforced negativity. And I’m contributing to it. I haven’t done a cheerful post in days. Okay there was the eric lindros moment but still that was more me ranting because I can’t believe that I like eric lindros… AND that i admitted it to my blog.

I really think that a large part of the effect is caused by a sudden and drastic shift in the weather. We (us northeasterners) were all wearing shorts and t’s less than two weeks ago and suddenly it’s cold and rainy and most definetely fall. It’s DARK out when I go teach in the morning.


Not to mention that the air is moist and the leaves are falling the the colours they are a changing. I think there’s something in the veins of we northeasterners that causes us to get a little miserable in the fall. And I think this is especially nasty this year because it’s a drastic shift rather than a gentle slope. We fell off a weather cliff so to speak.

And for a change the shift sort of happened all over the continent at once. My friend in north carolina tells me that fall hit there recently as well. I believe someone in cali mentioned a shift there too.

I think that humans drastically underestimate the effect that changing weather actually has on us. I think we go along blissfully and pay no attention to the weather except as it pertains to what we’re wearing and then we wonder at our moods. Any sort of barometric shift will cause a response in the body and it won’t necessarily be positive.

I told a friend of mine this and he said that he didn’t believe the weather had anything to do with it and then went back to being maudlin. I fail to see how the weather can be anything but connected. If it weren’t involved then at least a few people would be cheery and not maudlin right? Someone other than the newly sexed would be feeling positive?

Maybe I’m just reflecting my own mood into the mirrors of the people that I see around me?

Maybe I’m not?

I just think that our bodies are a lot more connected into the energy fields around us than we realise… and I also think that that’s cool as hell except when it’s doing this!

gotta go teach… be well folks.



  1. bummer a bunch of your pals are having a bad time of things.

    yup, weather is changing here too. it still wants to be summer but nights are getting colder, sun is setting a little earlier each evening, and the leaves are changing colors.

    this past weekend will probably be one of the last sunny somewhat warm ones before the rainy season sets in. i just bought a 1966 mustang to hot rod so i took it out for the afternoon on sunday and drove it around all my favorite backroads.

    things are going pretty well for me these days. nice change and much needed.

    Comment by factory_peasant — October 25, 2005 @ 4:28 pm | Reply

  2. Sass, you are dead on with this post. I have NEVER felt maudlin, until recently. I think you hit the nail on the head.

    I’m waiting for that eternal ray of sunshine to come my way…..

    Comment by SignGurl (Jenn) — October 25, 2005 @ 4:49 pm | Reply

  3. I suppose it doesn’t help that I appear to be doing just fine… No wait, allow be to be a beacon of positivity. Live vicariously through me! no fuck that… now I just sound pretentious. I am fine & very lucky to be in the moods I’ve been in throughout this season of beautiful browns & greys.

    Everything nice: DAMN dude, I’m real sorry to hear about your place. Never happened to me so I guess that is all I can really say…

    Comment by green_hedonist — October 25, 2005 @ 5:19 pm | Reply

  4. Slightly contrary — I am sort of kind of almost but not really dating someone and was recently sexed (sorry, I know, TMI) and yet! AND YET! I’m still a depressed motherfucker. That shit blows.

    Comment by Teresa Naomi — October 25, 2005 @ 6:11 pm | Reply

  5. factory: never fear, at least one *cough*hedonist*cough* is doing great so that’s leavening. Also I’m feeling pretty good in spite of the unhappy nature of my recent posts :)

    it sounds like you live in a beautiful compromise between fall and summer right now. do enjoy it! I can’t believe all hallows eve is like THIS WEEKEND! I don’t even have a costume yet.

    ohhh i love long drives in old cars on deserted roads… *sigh of bliss*

    jenn: do you want eternal sunshine? don’t you sort of like having an excuse to be maudlin sometimes?

    Comment by sassinak — October 25, 2005 @ 7:15 pm | Reply

  6. hedonist: you had a shitty enough time for long enough… PARTY on dude. And you’re right, the scenery is sooooo beautiful around here right now. Beautiful multihued leaves on wet grass….

    treesa: got some SEX! YES!

    why do you think you’re depressed dude?

    Comment by sassinak — October 25, 2005 @ 7:16 pm | Reply

  7. Last week it was NICE. Temps in the upper 70s, low 80s. Driving to work with the sunroof open listening to some crucial roots reggae. Life was good. Went to get coffee one day with S and ended up on the parkway, drinking a triple cap while listening to Ozomatli. Life was good.

    Wake up on Monday thinking of all of the crap I want to do, and it’s like 40F. Froze on the way to the gym (I refuse to wear a jacket). Today we’re under a wind watch. 25knot in the valley, higher at elevation. The heat is on at the house and it sucks.

    Fall sucks. Ok, I like the falling leaves. I actually like raking leaves, especially when I get blisters. I like the smell of rotting leaves. I enjoy days that are sunny but have a bit of bite to the area. But this shit is nonsense, IT IS FUCKING WINTER. Snow is forecast for the upper elevations tonight. This is NC, not Monfreakingtana. *sigh*

    I have to confess, I’m the one with the crappy marriage that is going down the toilet faster a nympho on prom night.

    I did see some sunlight on the way home, it was nice. Huge rays were breaking through the clouds as I approached the mountains. I need to carry a camery.

    Comment by castufari — October 25, 2005 @ 7:46 pm | Reply

  8. cast: mmmm sitting on the parkway. you’re so lucky to have that beautiful place at your doorstep. dude like so lucky. that would almost get me drinking triple capps but instead i would have to have a large black coffee :)

    though if i add the white stuff capp is the only way to go… (yes lsd your mochas are yummy but too rich for my hips!)

    Why the no jacket rule dude? I mean it’s cold out, wear a coat. (hello my mother’s voice)

    It’s like you skipped fall adn went straight into winter. here we skipped early fall and went straight into LATE fall cold and ickyness. where’s the long dry fall days with crisp leaves and stuff?

    way to out yourself dude!

    what’s a camery?

    Comment by sassinak — October 25, 2005 @ 8:33 pm | Reply

  9. *checks outside*

    86 and sunny … hmmm


    Comment by DZER — October 25, 2005 @ 9:11 pm | Reply

  10. um… :P

    and note that unlike us you aren’t maudlin :P

    hi deez!

    *packs herself in fed ex box*

    also my earrings showed up but one of the thong bits fell off so i have to do microsurgery on them before i can wear them.


    Comment by sassinak — October 25, 2005 @ 9:15 pm | Reply

  11. dude, that sucks that it broken in transit … guess I shoulda used some foam …. hopefully a little superglue will get ya going

    wanna come to the beach for lunch? LOL

    Comment by DZER — October 25, 2005 @ 9:29 pm | Reply

  12. dzer and his damn nice weather. our own bluebird of happiness, damn him. :)

    no coat because i was out playing in the woods last year and rolled through some briars, now I have all these burrs on my coat, i spent an hour picking them off and barely made a dent. i let someone borrow my goretex coat and she’s yet to return it. a home invasion might be in order.

    camery should be camera.

    back to burning cds. ahem. :)

    Comment by castufari — October 25, 2005 @ 9:36 pm | Reply

  13. dzer: i think fixable though… i might get artist sister to do it….

    YES i want to come to the beach for lunch


    cast: what you want all my friends to be depressed at once? cheer for the cheer of the dzer!

    yay CDs!

    boo burrs! :)

    Comment by sassinak — October 25, 2005 @ 10:57 pm | Reply

  14. Hmm… I dunno Sass. I guess my depression and maudlin state were rather brief. For the most part, I’ve been in a great mood for the last week or so.

    It’s definitely fall here in Missouri now, cold and wonderfully dreary. The leaves are changing colors, and I can wear sweaters again! That and now my cat has decided to act as a feline heating blanket/scarf again. Which is pleasant.

    Oh, and even if this is majorly TMI, haven’t fallen into the category of “recently sexed” in almost 10 months! And yet, I’m in an incredible mood; the happiest I’ve been in years.

    I assume it’s my upcoming move & new jobs that’s making me smile, in spite of cold weather, empty wallet, and (mostly) empty bed…

    Comment by SonusExMachina — October 25, 2005 @ 11:14 pm | Reply

  15. hey sonus :)

    i think that if i were about to move to california i would glory in one last proper fall before i left… but that’s just me.

    funny thing, i quite like fall and i’m generally doing okay. that said, the weather seems to have hit me and mine like a ton of bricks this year….

    i think it’s the sudden shift… there was no gradual decline into fall this year… it just one day wasn’t summer anymore.

    it’s not tmi… and it’s well over two years for me! sex doesn’t make people happy but people in budding relationships tend to be happier than average…

    money doesn’t matter dude unless you really can’t pay for something like your rent…

    Comment by sassinak — October 25, 2005 @ 11:22 pm | Reply

  16. SonusExMachina …. hey … if you’re near Sedalia, I should have you drive to my mom’s and give her a “hello” from the blogosphere … she was just complaining to me how the weather in Mizzou was getting down to the 40s and 30s …

    my TMI sharing … actual intercourse has been … oooh … since forever. now, self-manhandling, I take it, is a different rodeo? LOL

    Comment by DZER — October 26, 2005 @ 3:16 am | Reply

  17. Sass, you’re on the money about the sudden shift to winter. Usually summer goes away for a week, it gets chilly and icky, then it warms up to the upper 70s. A few years ago it was in the 60s and 70s until December. This year? Not. All of the fall fun, such as enjoying the chill in the air was here and gone in a day. Sick.

    Wow, 6:55am and it’s just hitting 40F.

    Comment by castufari — October 26, 2005 @ 6:54 am | Reply

  18. You are totally right with the weather thing- in Va here, from air conditioning to winter coats in a WEEK….(sigh)
    I truly admire your dedication to keeping peoples secrets just that, SECRET. There are very few folks like you in this world!
    Thank you! :-)

    Comment by whitesgem — October 26, 2005 @ 9:28 am | Reply

  19. Dzer & Sonus: WOAH!! This TMI That I’d LIKE to share with all of you (but ya know, most don’t want to hear it & the rest would likely kill me for being such a well… hedonist) has gone very far to another level. Wow dude. If we are all connected beings on this globe, I think I might be “filling in” for about three people right now.

    Is it hot in here? I could’ve swore that Winter was fast approaching…

    So Dzer’s in Guam, Sonus is looking California & feeling Minnesota, I want to take a private jet to all the places in the world to see friends & acquaintances & bring along the Mighty Doll to see how many countries we can have sex in.

    Hey Dzer, where can I find the erotica that you write? Colour me curious.

    I’m a little preoccupied lately
    deep end? lemme know.

    Comment by green_hedonist — October 26, 2005 @ 10:04 am | Reply

  20. green hedonist: my erotica site is … enjoy!!

    Comment by DZER — October 26, 2005 @ 10:16 am | Reply

  21. dzer: wouldn’t that be neat if someone showed up at her door going “hey i’m saying hi for your son in guam!” … i would die laughing if someone did that to me.

    you know i hardly even bother anymore with the ‘self manhandling…’ like really it’s just… *shaking head* i can’t be bothered.

    cast: yeah that’s just it. i’m sulking because i didn’t get fall and indian summer and all that stuff. i’m holding out hope for unseasonably warm hallowe’en but at the same time i’ve NEVER hit hallowe’en in canada without seeing snow and i haven’t seen it yet…

    Comment by sassinak — October 26, 2005 @ 11:02 am | Reply

  22. whitesgem: there’s a reason everyone in my blog gets referred to by initials or preferably nicknames. it’s not my place to tell their stories.. it’s theirs if they choose… and i just don’t get how many people tell the secrets of others without even thinking twice about it. it’s weird. [you’re welcome also!]

    you’re in va? yeah cast is in NC and he said the same thing happened there.

    hedonist: very far to another level… i’m a little curious what the heck that means but i’m thinking it’s good.

    if you skip having sex on the plane i’m coming with on the visits… but we have to stop in aus and guam!

    Comment by sassinak — October 26, 2005 @ 11:23 am | Reply

  23. fair deal, and this MAY be even cooler than the mile-high club. ;) I will certainly confer with you. I feel rather like a baby in a topless bar.

    Or the inner hedonist is simply surging to life with a flood of activity.

    Comment by green_hedonist — October 26, 2005 @ 12:02 pm | Reply

  24. Interesting posts and comments. I have noticed a severe decline in comments and people that actually reference and/or talk to me anymore.

    I think that is what depresses me the most. I kinda miss people sharing my misery.

    Comment by Everything nice — October 26, 2005 @ 1:38 pm | Reply

  25. hedonist: mile high club… hmmm haven’t done THAT one yet. babies in topless bars would seem to be in food heaven?

    bubbles: i think your comments are in decline because you didn’t post for several days and we all sort of stopped checking you every few hours… i know that when people aren’t posting as much i visit once a day instead of six times and that will effect the commenting.

    that said, trust me honey we’re sharing!

    Comment by sassinak — October 26, 2005 @ 2:27 pm | Reply

  26. Speaking of sharing, this wine kicks ass.

    Comment by castufari — October 26, 2005 @ 6:29 pm | Reply

  27. tease

    Comment by sassinak — October 26, 2005 @ 7:39 pm | Reply

  28. There is some left, a little. Like…1/2″ in the bottle. I think I’m slowing becoming a sot.

    Comment by castufari — October 26, 2005 @ 7:42 pm | Reply

  29. damm cast and i’m even early to the party!

    you guys started without me!

    Comment by sassinak — October 26, 2005 @ 8:09 pm | Reply

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