snapshots of an idle mind

October 31, 2005

happy hallowe’en/samhain

Filed under: Uncategorized — sassinak @ 1:06 pm

I don’t have too much time to post this because my mother is about to call me back. That said, I wanted to take the time to send hallowe’en wishes to y’all.

I think that people should take today more seriously than they do. Although perhaps serious isn’t quite the right word here. Today is the last of the pagan holy days that are still celebrated. Several others are marked as well but they’ve been coopted into christian holidays.

In fact, according to this website:
Samhain (or Halloween)
October 31. An ancient Celtic festival which celebrates the beginning of winter, marked by death, and the beginning of the Celtic New Year. Samhain means “end of summer.” Samhain is a sabbat universally observed, which is included among the Greater sabbats observed by neo-Pagans. The Druids, in ancient Ireland, once sacrificed to their deities by burning victims in wickerwork cages. All other fires were to be extinguished and lighted again from the sacrificial fire. This custom still continues in Ireland and Scotland, all fires in homes are extinguished and lighted again from bonfires, but without sacrificial victims. Samhain marks the third harvests and the storage of provisions for winter. The veil between the worlds of the living and dead is the thinnest during this time making communications easier. Souls of the dead can come into the land of the living. Samhain is a time for eliminating weaknesses, when pagan once slaughtered weak animals that were thought not to be able to survive the winter. This custom resulted in the modern practice by some who wanted to get rid of their weaknesses of writing them on a piece of paper and dropping them into a fire. Some baked cakes to be offered for the souls of the dead. Samhain was Christianized into All Hallow’s Eve or Halloween. The modern custom or trick-and-treating may have originated from an old Irish peasant custom of going door-to-door to collect money, breadcake, cheese, eggs, butter, nuts, apples and other foods in preparation for the festival of St. Columb Kill. Apples are included in many rites, especially as ingredients in brews. Dunking for apples may have been a divinatory practice.

This is pretty much the only Pagan turning point that exists in any form today. I suppose some cultures still celebrate May Day but I don’t know anyone who has ever done it. Anyway othercat and I decided to mark the Pagan New Year with a New Year’s resolution.

In fact we’re going to lose ten pounds each by christmas. We even shook on it! (and looked apprehensive!)

This is really just so that when we celebrate the solstice in december we can eat like the gluttons we are and still come out ahead in January. You see I have 20 pounds left to chuck and he has 15 and we’re both feeling inspired because hot doctor went and dropped a bunch of weight and he’s looking fantastic. Yes, he got HOTTER.

I’m sorta happy about it though because i get all his old pants… and the best part? They actually fit. In fact they’re *tight*. Can you imagine how weird it is to wear pants that are *tight* when you’ve been wearing what was effectively a sack for the last year or so?

No, I don’t think you can. I’m basically walking around looking in mirrors and wondering if I should be looking at something in a bigger size, if i should lose more weight before I wear them and so on.

Why is this ridiculous?

You know the great tester or whether jeans fit or not? Well if you don’t it’s the roll. Yes the roll aka back bacon that hangs out over your waistband and looks terrible unless you’re wearing a super baggy shirt.

Yeah, no roll. In fact smooth belly rising out of said jeans. Shut up, we’re not talking about sitting down!

That means they fit right? No matter how uncomfortable it is to move in pants that are snug they fit. So that means I’m a size 32 now. Yeah dudes… I’ve gone from a size 24 and you can’t buy jeans by waist size cause you’re too fat to a size 38 and then down to an 18 in women’s sizes to a 32 (puts me around 12/14 in women’s sizes i think…). And that is still a little bigger than I wish to be but at least it’s within shouting distance of where I want to end up.

It’s so strange to be this close to the end of such a long trip. I’m really being forced to wrap my head around the fact that I’m not the fat girl who can’t move. It’s funny because when I became disabled it took me a really long time to accept that I was broken and that there were a lot of things I could not do. In fact I was already healing by the time I really got how fucked up my body was. I wonder how long it will take in reverse…

Here’s a before photo of othercat and i:


Been looking into flights to Italy and I definetely can’t go. *sulk*


  1. I should be able to improve the outlook by xmas if the standard is that photograph. I am beginning to think that 10 pounds oughta be a piece of cake. Wrong metaphor for losing weight, but wotthehell.

    Comment by othercat — October 31, 2005 @ 3:21 pm | Reply

  2. well the standard could also be the pilates pix gallery… but i thought this photo was funny enough that we would be amused by it.

    i don’t think it will be that difficult. cut out cheese and dessert…

    Comment by sassinak — October 31, 2005 @ 3:36 pm | Reply

  3. Cut out cheese (in excess), desserts (except once/week or so) and all SODA. That stuff is evil. Cutting out booze, too…that is gonna be the tough one.

    Great pic. :)

    Sorry about Italia. :(

    Comment by castufari — October 31, 2005 @ 5:15 pm | Reply

  4. other than parmesan i’m pretty off cheese anyway. it’s more about cutting portions at this point and that’s the hard part.

    hate soda… cut it out when i was like 6

    that is an awesome pic isn’t it?

    i’m sorry too, it turns out that i wanted to go *shrug* who knew?

    Comment by sassinak — October 31, 2005 @ 7:37 pm | Reply

  5. How did I miss Italy? Why is it you want to go?

    How in the world have you lost so much weight? I stand in awe of you Sass.

    Comment by SignGurl (Jenn) — October 31, 2005 @ 9:04 pm | Reply

  6. jenn: 3.5 years of pilates and car accident recovery :)

    watching my food on occasion and TONS of exercise.

    my parents live in italy

    Comment by sassinak — October 31, 2005 @ 9:07 pm | Reply

  7. Sass, you and Hubris are my this years recipients of male and female hero awards. I only see you two every so often so the dramatic changes are even more emphisized in my perception. Way to rock the barb. suit.

    If I were a betting man (wait I am) I would say that the smart money was on you reaching your goal this year. Keep up the great work. You inspire me.

    Comment by Light Strikes A Deal — November 1, 2005 @ 12:48 am | Reply

  8. *drools*

    is that….sass in plethor?!!

    Comment by da buttah — November 1, 2005 @ 12:56 am | Reply

  9. i think hubris wins this year. I get the long term progress award *grin*

    i can’t even put into words how happy that catsuit zipping up *easily* made me. I almost didn’t even try it on!

    i’m glad to be inspirational to people, it adds energy to my life… adn i hope to theirs as well.

    Comment by sassinak — November 1, 2005 @ 12:58 am | Reply

  10. buttah: yup, yup it is… and if you scroll down to the :) post there’s another pic !

    Comment by sassinak — November 1, 2005 @ 12:59 am | Reply

  11. Just a minor technical point, because I’m rife with trivia.

    Paganism was/is its own separate religion, but it’s been turned into a “almost all non Christian religions” catch-all word, similar to “heathen.” The Church considered Gauls, Celts, Druids, etc. to be “pagan.”


    was gonna post a whole giant thing on Halloween and Samhain and paganism and yadda yadda but I just couldn’t summon the gusto.

    So … great post, I’ll be rooting for your continued quest … and you look smokin’ HOT in that suit!

    I think that covers most of it … :)

    Comment by DZER — November 1, 2005 @ 5:06 am | Reply

  12. and sorry you can’t get to Italy darlin’ …

    Comment by DZER — November 1, 2005 @ 8:33 am | Reply

  13. d: no big… i’ll go next year with better planning :)

    i don’t think that they’re all one religion at all, but i do know that hallowe’en was a pretty big holiday for a lot of non christian but still european religions. course not mithras or soemthing *grin*

    i’m glad you enjoyed my post and i’m sad you didn’t do one it owuld have been awesome :)

    Comment by sassinak — November 1, 2005 @ 9:02 am | Reply

  14. *scrolls down*

    *runs to the bathroom for a “shower” stat*


    sucks you can’t go to italy..but if you’re really dying for some italian-esque crap, might i suggest……brooklyn?!

    Comment by da buttah — November 1, 2005 @ 10:35 am | Reply

  15. sass: I wrote too many hard and serious responses to a few other posts … couldn’t summon the energy to get a deep and historical … sorry darlin’


    Comment by DZER — November 1, 2005 @ 10:39 am | Reply

  16. d: fair enough… do it next year :)

    butt: *giggle* thanks darlin’

    it was more to see my parents, i’ve been to that town several times… i’ll maybe go in feb or march…

    Comment by sassinak — November 1, 2005 @ 11:06 am | Reply

  17. i frickin’ love you in that costume, it’s so damn cute! maybe hot would be a better word.

    i think i might hop on the 10-pounds-off-by-Christmas bus…would y’all mind?

    Comment by Blondie — November 1, 2005 @ 11:45 am | Reply

  18. nuh uh i’d love it. there’s power in numbers somehow. so when you add someone to a group it makes the whole group stronger!

    you know it’s funny… i know it’s a pvc catsuit but i think of it more as cute than hot myself :)

    Comment by sassinak — November 1, 2005 @ 12:52 pm | Reply

  19. Nice legs, Blondie!

    Sass, you can totally do it by year end. I think it only takes about 3 weeks of dedication. Not much fun but it works. Also thank you for the compliment.

    LSD, thanks to you too for the compliment. It feels really good to get this only far & experience that kind of reaction. It inspires to see what will happen when I’m finished & just maintain what I have done.

    Comment by green_hedonist — November 1, 2005 @ 12:57 pm | Reply

  20. awesome!!! count me in!!! i totally agree, sass, that’s why i thought i’d join the party.

    i think it’s a little of both…cute and hot. :)

    thanks mr. hedonist!

    Comment by Blondie — November 1, 2005 @ 1:02 pm | Reply

  21. hedonist: i don’t want to do it fast though i want to do it right and that means no more than about 8 pounds per month…

    you’re welcome for the compliment but you TOTALLY earned it. LSD is right dude… you may outclimb him next time he’s here…

    *throws down challenge…*

    blondie: join in join in! what are you going to change in your diet?

    i’m glad you noticed the cute factor, i was starting to think i was imagining things. and yeah, hedonist is right, GREAT legs.

    Comment by sassinak — November 1, 2005 @ 1:31 pm | Reply

  22. 10 to christmas?

    i’m in on that :)

    Comment by da buttah — November 1, 2005 @ 1:35 pm | Reply

  23. I’ll do 15 for xmas.

    Comment by castufari — November 1, 2005 @ 1:39 pm | Reply

  24. damm y’all this is awesome!

    now there’s five of us!

    Comment by sassinak — November 1, 2005 @ 1:43 pm | Reply

  25. i’ll gain it all back on my vacation ;)

    Comment by da buttah — November 1, 2005 @ 1:50 pm | Reply

  26. i’m sorta hoping for fifteen so i can gain five at christmas and still be down ten!

    Comment by sassinak — November 1, 2005 @ 1:53 pm | Reply

  27. i’ll go for 15.

    i actually need to just get back to the gym. my diet hasn’t been horrible, but i stopped working out there for awhile and i need to get back to it hardcore.

    aw! look at us go!

    Comment by Blondie — November 1, 2005 @ 2:02 pm | Reply

  28. i’m aiming for ten but not stopping if i get there early…. so fifteen is the sort of outside hope :)

    i like that we’re evenly split boys and girls too…

    i’m working out enough but i’m being sorta lazy with my diet and i have to just pay attention for a couple of months… the fries and so on have been creeping back in.

    Comment by sassinak — November 1, 2005 @ 2:07 pm | Reply

  29. i’ll see what happens. my body has been in this plateau stage for months now….like….8 or 9 months…hopefully i don’t have to beat myself up to accomplish anything, but i’m afraid i might have to.

    Comment by Blondie — November 1, 2005 @ 3:00 pm | Reply

  30. Yeah, count me in for the de-poundination. 10 pounds sounds possible, if I gym it regularly.

    Down With Cheese!!!

    Comment by Johnny Canuck — November 1, 2005 @ 3:03 pm | Reply

  31. damn guys it’s exactly half and half boys and girls… that’s AWESOME!

    blondie… yeah i’ve been stuck at this weight for months myself. still better than the 1.5 years i was stuck at the previous plateau for.

    no self beating up, just healthier choices and less cream and suger in the caffeinated beverages….

    cheese… so much evil in such a small space *chuckling*

    Comment by sassinak — November 1, 2005 @ 3:17 pm | Reply

  32. This site kicks ass, if you can maintain it without getting distracted by something shiny (which is what happens to me so often)

    Comment by mightydoll — November 2, 2005 @ 11:01 am | Reply

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