snapshots of an idle mind

January 6, 2006

bits and bites

Filed under: Uncategorized — sassinak @ 2:12 am

song of the moment – 3rd planet – modest mouse

so, i have to move. it’s official. some pipe burst in a part of the building that doesn’t actually exist somehow so they have to drill through several different walls and floors and work until 1 in the morning (and start again at 9) and somehow that means that the property manager and the superintendent have to laugh and talk at the top of their fucking lungs in the halls at ten o’clock in the morning.

so i complained and got informed that since they can’t psychically know when people are here and when they aren’t that they don’t have to be considerate. that we should just suck it up that ten am is considered an acceptable time to wake people up.

great. my one day of the week i can get some sleep and they’re standing outside my fucking apartment shouting at the tops of their lungs. AGAIN

there have been months and months of disturbance by this ‘new, high efficiency’ boiler that they’ve put in. about the only satisfaction for me is that they’re not sleeping any better than i am since it keeps blowing up and failing and bursting pipes. and it further turns out that high efficiency means ‘makes a jet plane sound quiet’ *sigh* i love my apartment but i fucking hate this building.

you guys you can’t believe the mess. they had to drill through the floor in the hall, the floor in the apartment across from the boiler room (that guy can’t even be in his apartment right now) and the wall of the boiler room and MAYBE TnA’s apartment wall/floor as well.


the only satisfaction for me in all this? well actually there are two.

one. thank the universe they fired me because man this is a nightmare and has been for months.
two. it’s costing them piles and piles of unexpected money

*evil grin*

what’s funny is that i didn’t go looking for an apartment, i went looking for a loft. how ridiculous is that since i can’t even pay a tenth of the down payment? yeah, pretty ridiculous. still here i am perusing real estate listings for a home that i cannot possibly afford.

it is perhaps time to find out if a couple of people who want to finance my studio dreams wish to put their money where their mouths are… but i’m a little unsure about doing that. i don’t really like the idea of tying my financial future to someone else unless it’s a relative or a spouse. and even the spouse one is pretty strange considering what’s happened to some friends of mine.

i just really hate the idea of moving to yet another place where i’ll be paying someone else’s rent. it sort of enrages me. what’s even more frustrating is that if i could just stop dropping 600 bucks a month in studio rental fees i’d have my down payment by the end of the year.

man it sucks to be coming out of extreme poverty. i was doing okay when i got in my accident.. had savings and plans and all sorts of things. clearly the universe had something else in mind.

[and it’s 10 hours later]

i can’t stop eating the pretzels and nutella long enough to type right now. gawd it’s delicious.

it’s funny how my love for chocolate has grown with me. i didn’t really care that much about it for a long time and then i met really good dark chocolate and well. yeah gonzo.

and the hot doctor reintroduced me to nutella as an adult… man i’m grateful for that one.

a friend of mine who has been married for a really long time was giving me the lecture about cooking for yourself. you know, the one where they tell you how much cheaper it is to cook all your meals?

the one where they tell you how easy it is?

the one where they do not consider, for even a second, how expensive it is to let half of every vegetable or whatever you buy rot in your fridge because you eat so little of everything. or that i’m a bitching cook. or that it’s hard to cook balanced meals for one.

damm i love that lecture.

this is the oddest cd. cast put modest mouse live on it followed by iron and wine. and it seems like the totally weirdest combination and yet? totally works.

and totally off topic? the freebird rant is one of the funniest things i’ve ever heard.

othercat has bicep photos in his camera. if you’re lucky you’ll see them next week. they’re a month old but it’s cool.

i didn’t go to singles night at the climbing gym.

say it with me now, SINGLES night at the CLIMBING GYM. yeah.

it’s theoretically about finding people belay partners except there’s a picture of a heart shaped hold on the poster. for serious.

it’s red and heart shaped.


funnily enough it’s not the total lameness of it that kept me from going, i was tired and i’d had a long day of work and being woken up by the fucking exploded boiler and i realised that i was only going because it was singles night and not because i particularly wanted to.

and since, when i was all into hcg, (who now lives on the back burner with several other folks) i made a rule that i could only go climbing if i wouldn’t be sad that he wasn’t there i decided it was a good rule in general. only go if you really really want to and not because someone might be there, you have plans to meet there (then you just belay slave) or it’s singles night.

yeah. singles night at the climbing gym. that shit is just weird.

it’s even weirder because some people will be looking for climbing partners and some people will be looking for dates and there’s no particular way to tell who’s what and who is or isn’t married. it’s strange.

i’m sorta unable to participate anyway because i have clients until an hour and a half after it starts. i confess that i’m sort of relieved. it just seems so painfully lame.

and yet really… how is okcupid or lavalife any less lame? and it’s worked for TONS of folks that i know. funny little sass… :)



  1. dude…what a brilliant ramble!

    sorry bout the apartment madness…
    nutella is the ill shit…love that stuff…
    cooking? meh..
    MM’s freebird rant is hilarious…and that album combo would rule pretty hard.
    uhhh…singles climbing? ok

    Comment by Jenn — January 6, 2006 @ 3:33 am | Reply

  2. yeah! what jenn said! let’s get ready to rammmmm-bullllll!!!


    that was like … typewritten bloggy jazz, sass … kept wanting to sit in and jam with ya .. LOL

    and, may I say … woohoo on the bicep pics! can’t wait to see those.

    oh … and singles night pretty much anywhere … bleah.

    Comment by DZER — January 6, 2006 @ 4:07 am | Reply

  3. damm i had no idea anyone was going to find my rambling brilliant, here i thought i was just whining :)

    and yeah, singles night sucks hard, hence my not minding that i skipped it.

    jam on dzer!


    Comment by sassinak — January 6, 2006 @ 9:07 am | Reply

  4. OMG Singles Night at the Climbing Gym… Wait…wait…I need to get off the floor now.

    But I would so totally go if I was a climber. So until they come up with singles day at uni…I am not going to be getting any of that.

    Nutella…fucking yum and a half. When I was in Paris, I couldn’t get enough of the hot crepes with nutella from the street vendors. YUM.

    They do say that chocolate causes the same chemical reaction as love. And less heartache…well, unless it is a heart attack…then it’s not so clever an idea.

    Hehehe… Singles Night at the Climbing Gym… *shaking head and smiling*


    Comment by Natalia — January 6, 2006 @ 10:24 am | Reply

  5. SINGLES night at the CLIMBING GYM with a big heart and all!


    fluffy bunnies. LOL.

    So, is it possible you could buy a loft and teach your lessons in it? you could use the rent and utilities as a business write off.

    holy fuck i cant believe i just said that… is it obvious it’s tax time?

    Just saying that if you could it’s possible to get a HUGE chunk back at the end of the year. K, enough with that shit.

    Am I sending you sperm? I could tuck it in the package… LMAO

    “tuck it in the package”

    K, teary eyes from laughing… let me know I’m hitting the PO today!

    Comment by Everything nice — January 6, 2006 @ 10:35 am | Reply

  6. MMMmmmmmm…….. Nutella. I want to fill my bathtub with nutella and and submerge myself in the heavenly flavor.

    Damn, singles night at the climbing gym. Maybe I’m just that lame, but I think that its a fucking great idea. I would totally be there. But I wouldn’t be wearing a harness or offering belay’s just bouldering and flirting. I love flirting almost as much as I love Nutella.

    Comment by Light Strikes A Deal — January 6, 2006 @ 11:09 am | Reply

  7. A nutella bath…not THAT is a fucking great idea.


    Comment by Natalia — January 6, 2006 @ 11:18 am | Reply

  8. proper response in an hour after i teach… BUT

    nutella bath

    i’m sorry but i think i just slid off my chair.

    is that too much information?

    Comment by sassinak — January 6, 2006 @ 12:30 pm | Reply

  9. I am opposed to anything with the word “singles” in it.

    Comment by R. U. Serious — January 6, 2006 @ 1:49 pm | Reply

  10. jenn: the apartment madness sucks for sure. as for cooking i do love it but i hate cooking for one. it’s too frustrating and wasteful.

    singles climbing… i know, weird.

    dzer: hee. i had no idea anyone would like my ramble or think it was bloggy jazz. what a cool compliment.

    go bug othercat, they’re in his camera. and as for singles night yeah i don’t know how i feel about it.

    nat: i know, it cracks me up every time that i think of it. in fact i had to pick myself up off the floor when i saw the heart shaped hold on the poster.

    i was going to go for sure but i was a) tired as hell and b) only going because it was singles night. which makes it a bad plan :)

    damn, now i want to move to paris and have those very street crepes. cause that sounds SO YUMMY! no dude, SO YUMMY!

    hee heart attacks are bad!

    i know, it cracks me up. i’m still laughing.

    Comment by sassinak — January 6, 2006 @ 1:53 pm | Reply

  11. bubbles: i know. how freaking overly cute is that? it definetely makes me think of hearts and flowers and bubblegum and :)

    that’s my plan, buy a loft and get curtains so i can use it as a home and a studio and use my couch as a reception area… heck i could even leave my playstation available for people that are waiting AND write off half the mortgage/utilitites etc. i do NOT want to be paying someone elses mortgage anymore, want to pay MY mortgage :)

    i don’t know if you’re sending me sperm, i need to think about it for a while.

    k i’m crying i’m laughing so hard from that tuck it in comment. like crying.

    LSD: oh my god. oh my god. nutella bath. that sounds good and gets better everytime i read it. every.time.

    look all protestations aside i *was* going to go. it’s just that my hands were mad on tuesday from the tiny amount of climbing required to try shoes. i was *not* up for a climb so i stayed home. and called my sister.

    i would say that flirting is definetely your favourite form of communication. mine too now that i think on it.

    nat: i KNOW!

    RUS: me too, and yet still i was going to go.

    Comment by sassinak — January 6, 2006 @ 2:03 pm | Reply

  12. sass!.. i love when you write like this .. it makes me laugh so hard.. i giggle through the entire thing.. (haha@ 10 hrs later) .. what the hell .. now i know why everyones blog is so much better than mine.. altho mine is social not therapuetic in any way..

    comment post time … 45 seconds
    blog write time…. 10 min

    hilarity of some blogs like this.. PRICELESS!

    Comment by sugarpunk — January 6, 2006 @ 6:51 pm | Reply

  13. i’m with everyone else — singles night anywhere… eeuw.

    and the apartment hell SUCKS. sucks ass. went through something very similar a few months ago, and it was just. awful. every. moment.

    and i’ll chime in with everyone else on this, too, because i was just thinking how much i enjoy the way you write. just great.

    Comment by terry — January 6, 2006 @ 10:59 pm | Reply

  14. punk: it’s really funny because i was fully like ‘i have no fucking idea what to day’ when i sat down to finish that post and then y’all love it. sometimes my brain really amazes me.

    yay i’m PRICELESS! (my blog takes a bit more than ten minutes but i write long posts)

    terry: yeah, and yet i’m single, i’m lonely, i’ll go. apparently two whole people showed up and i missed nothing. :)

    oh man i’m sitting here commiserating with the person whose apartment got gutted so they could get at a pipe. we’re ranting. it’s ugly.

    i love that you guys love my writing. i don’t understand it, but i love it :)


    *warm fuzzy glow*

    Comment by sassinak — January 7, 2006 @ 12:58 am | Reply

  15. sass: its the nonsensical that is soooo charming (being that im always all over the map) it really works for me .. i dont need a map on how you got to the end… LOL (sad i know.. let me smoke some more)

    although i do love the insightfulness when you write about life dilemmas.. but most of the time you work through those .. and that is cool as hell too! ..

    Comment by sugarpunk — January 7, 2006 @ 7:00 am | Reply

  16. Pretzels and nutella. That’s some serious yum.

    The thing is … ALL “singles” things are lame, for the simple purpose that they are singles things. When in college, singles things are the norm, because… well, in college, we’re all still single. But as we get older…and older…and older still (I’m right there with you on the 30s train, sass, so don’t think I’m just being snarky) …it’s like a stigma. Here I am with the big red S on my chest, and it doesn’t fucking stand for superwoman!

    So, singles night being what it is — wherever it is — it’s probably a large contributor to getting that big red S off of a lot of our chests. And if I were a climber person (my arms are too short — or at least that is my excuse and I am totally sticking with that!), I would probably go. The only thing that bugs me about it is the uncertainty of people’s purpose in being there — it’s like, if I’m wearing too much makeup, will the cute climbing guy think I’m only here to pick up and hence not ask me to be his belay partner because he thinks I’m not serious about climbing? I mean, ughh… the confusion!

    Comment by JMai — January 7, 2006 @ 10:58 am | Reply

  17. If you really think about it okcupid and lavalife are just online versions of your neighbourhood pub, etc. I think the stigma about online dating is all but gone, as even naysayers have begun to try it themselves. I think everyone knows people who have met online and made it work. But going to a singles anything that is live and in person… other than a bar, where people know they are there to meet others but can pretend to be there to drink, takes balls and ovaries. Like Jmai says…the older we get the more that S on our chest feels like a stigma we carry around….well..only if we let it. :)

    Verbosity hehehe


    Comment by Natalia — January 7, 2006 @ 11:15 am | Reply

  18. Wear that S loud and proud, ya’ll. What the heck – an event like that beats the hell out of a bar. At least at a climbing gym you’ll meet people with common interests. Only type you’re guaranteed to meet at a bar are drinkers.

    Comment by Matt Vella — January 7, 2006 @ 12:12 pm | Reply

  19. punk: that’s awesome… and here i thought i should try to be a little more uh… clear or formatted or something. i wasn’t *going* to but i sorta thought that i should *grin*

    (yeah i wonder sometimes if y’all can tell when i am and am not stoned)

    i think it’s because i’ve read some kind of million books AND i had no friends for the first 18 or so years of my life so i became an observer and i learned to predict the end of a lot of stories.


    JM: dude words fail to describe how yummy it is. and what’s funny is that i introduced it to 4 people in a room. three of them were like ‘uh no’ and the fourth was like ‘this is the best food ever’ so only 25% of people get the yumness :)

    yeah for sure all singles things are lame for exactly the reason that yuo’re suggesting. which is perfectly fine really, i don’t mind being lame and i’ll go to the next one (though i’m again likely working until hours after it starts) and do (most likely) what lsd would have done. i just really don’t like the uncertainty. it’s not like you can wear rings when you climb.

    i don’t so much mind being single per se… it just makes the whole wanting a family thing a lot harder.

    no makeup for climbing, you’d sweat it off. i do wear mascara at the gym but it’s not helping me at all… i’m still not a girl somehow. sick part? if i was EXACTLY the same only 5’6″? I’d be smoking fucking hot and noone would consider me anything but a girl.

    Comment by sassinak — January 7, 2006 @ 2:18 pm | Reply

  20. nat: hey i’m on both websites, i wasn’t actually really dissing them. i’ve made a couple of excellent friends and i’m currently corresponding with what seems like a very nice man. it’s a hell of an improvement over some drunken yahoo drooling on me at a pub.

    my sis met her boyfriend online and knows many many other online couples so i’m fully doing it but apparently i’m not committed enough or some crap.

    i don’t really feel the stigma of being single although i am sad to not have had any sort of useful dating in two and a half years… mostly because i’m starting to think my hymen is growing back *grin*

    verbose on!

    matt: hey dude it for sure does, bars suck. bars are for hanging out at with people you already know.

    heck i’m considering speed dating *grin*

    Comment by sassinak — January 7, 2006 @ 2:22 pm | Reply

  21. Funny enough I think it is easierbeing single in larger cities. There are statistically more people and more singles and more people to you might like and also if you decide to remain single, there are more things to do for single people.

    I know you weren’t dissing them :) most of us single people are doing it these days… and what’s with the commitment thing? I know I log on and I check mail…that’s pretty much it. At times I check who is online or serach profiles… but mostly I let them come to me. See what they have to say…what their approach is, etc.

    The most ridiculous thing…and annoying is when someone sends you a message and you are not sure you are interestested…then they send you another one..and you think..OK I will say hello and then they stop. It’s like…was it all about the chase? What the fuck? People just drop off the face of cyberworld…never to be heard from again…then why pester me to answer? UGH


    Comment by Natalia — January 7, 2006 @ 3:59 pm | Reply

  22. sass, you write the way so many of our minds work… from this topic to that topic and back again, and you have this gift of tying it all together so it makes sense.

    and yeah, i think the dating thing is a challenge no matter how you go about it.

    Comment by terry — January 7, 2006 @ 4:02 pm | Reply

  23. nat: i think it is too. even if you look at something like online dating. i have hundreds of profiles to choose from and my sister in her little town had like 50 at most. heck lsd had to go through like 3 dating sites to find one with people in his area.

    i don’t mind being single really, and i don’t necessarily need someone to marry and live happily ever after with but damn some dating and some necking would be nice :)

    apparently i’m supposed to spend hours browsing profiles and emailing people. but i’m with you on the see how they approach school. and i totally do not get the ones that chase just to get you to say something.

    i also don’t get the ones that go “hi, i like your profile, email me if you’re interested’ … um you’re contacting me and thus it behooves YOU to say something interesting :)

    terry: COOL! damn i’m glad to hear i do that :)

    dating sucks… except for how much fun it can be… :)

    Comment by sassinak — January 7, 2006 @ 4:26 pm | Reply

  24. Sass I truly hope that you do plan on doing the home business thing. Financially I think it would be an absolutely great move for ya. Even if it means MORE sacrifices going forward… truly.

    K, I didn’t send you sperm. But you know I had to re-read the whole tucking in the package thing and laughed again.

    I am a tart. I will be unemotional if you will and we can ride off into the sunset on our yoga mats.

    Comment by Everything nice — January 7, 2006 @ 6:42 pm | Reply

  25. bubbles: i totally plan on it. question is do i ask daddy for money or suck it up that it will take two more years…?

    hee thanks for storing sperm for me… i might just ask for it in a year or so :)

    that line about the package was so funny i cried.

    i’ll be a tart WITH you… at least once, as an experiment :)

    mmmm yoga mats :)

    Comment by sassinak — January 7, 2006 @ 7:07 pm | Reply

  26. jumping in the tart/yoga mat bandwagon…

    Comment by Jenn! — January 7, 2006 @ 9:34 pm | Reply

  27. you want to sleep with everything nice too? :)

    Comment by sassinak — January 7, 2006 @ 10:06 pm | Reply

  28. uhhhh…
    *frantically reading thru EN’s profile*
    maybe ;)

    Comment by Jenn! — January 7, 2006 @ 10:41 pm | Reply

  29. hee
    yeah that’s how i feel about her myself *grin*

    i’m not into girls particularly but she has that thing :)

    Comment by sassinak — January 7, 2006 @ 11:20 pm | Reply

  30. My mixes rule. :) Well, most of ’em. I have one now that I screwed up on, Bic Runga leading into a live cut from Man or Astroman that doesn’t have a warmup, the taper started taping a few bars into the song.

    Glad you like your tunes, more are on the way soon.

    Comment by castufari — January 8, 2006 @ 9:15 am | Reply

  31. yay!

    more JJ and john butler and ozomatu please!

    also you should check out madrigaia, they’re fucking awesome!

    Comment by sassinak — January 8, 2006 @ 9:54 am | Reply

  32. I have some live of the above.

    Ozo ROCKS, I picked them off of a surf movie somewhere. Good stuff.

    Comment by castufari — January 8, 2006 @ 11:14 am | Reply

  33. well i’m glad you introduced me to them, i’m fully gone on them (although currently jack johnson is ruling my CD player… )

    i should clearly watch more surf flicks…

    Comment by sassinak — January 8, 2006 @ 11:19 am | Reply

  34. You have a great website here, and I’m going to tell all my friends about it.

    Comment by real estate listings — March 7, 2006 @ 3:44 am | Reply

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