snapshots of an idle mind

January 8, 2006

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Filed under: Uncategorized — sassinak @ 12:27 am

it cracks me up that you guys like me the most when i feel the most out of synch and the least inspired. funnily enough that happens to me when i teach too. i taught this class today that i was *sure* was totally discombobulated and weird and they fucking loved it. they were coming up to me after and thanking me and blah blah blah.

meanwhile? yeah i thought they were bored and not feeling challenged.

just goes to show you how fucked our perceptions of our effects on others can really be.
[so that was friday]

fuck i had most of a post here and then firefox crashed when i asked it to do 97 things at once and now my post is gone. and it was a little ramble about hockey day in canada and how i was fully watching it in it’s complete hokeyness. AND because firefox crashed instead of blogger burping there’s nothing to do to get it back.

ah well, it was kinda lame anyway.

and then, i did another one and shortened the hockey ramble and talked about advice that hits you like a punch and started in on the canadian election and firefox crashed again.

so yeah, here goes round i’ve lost track. wish me luck.

there’s an election in canada in something like two weeks. this sucks because it means that i actually have to pay attention to those stupid bastards while they beat each other up in the media and try to blow hot air up my ass. the mud slinging is really getting to me.

i have never seen such a horribly negative election campaign in my life. i’m sorry. i mean i’ve never seen such a horribly negative CANADIAN election campaign in my life. all they’re talking about are the things the ‘other guys’ will do that are awful but noone is really talking about what they will do instead. they’re just being evil.

picking horrid pictures of each other and saying nasty nasty things wrapped up in slick marketingspeak. i’m telling you it makes me want to vote NDP or green or independent or something. i mean hell i hate the conservatives but the liberals are starting to piss me off almost as much (close to more actually because i expect better from them).

in fact i’m so disgusted that i almost don’t want to vote just because i hate them all. all they’re doing is lying and trying to figure out what they can do that will fool me into voting for them.

would that someone would just tell the truth. god i wonder if anyone even knows what that is anymore. for serious some of the ads make me well up with tears i’m that upset about them.

it’s weird, it’s the third period in the vancouver/calgary game and i’m finishing up my third blog post for the day… except it’s the same post. i’ve been just about ready to post it TWICE now and then crash. and the first time was during the first game. the second time was during the second game and here i go again during the third game.

this is actually the best game of the three by far. the habs walked over the sens 4-1 and the leafs trounced edmonton 3-2 [hee see how i said trounced?] and my boyfrienddarcy tucker scored a goal despite being all injured. just somehow edmonton seemed outmatched the whole time.

calgary and vancouver are fully even and this game rocks. okay while i typed that calgary got two goals and now it’s 3-1 and way less interesting. but still, it’s been fast and clean and i’m really enjoying it. man i watched enough hockey today for the next month. or until the olympics.

man i love watching the olympics. as much as i love the stanley cup and the US Open tennis championships… something about watching the best of the best fight it out…

damm the boys are starting to fight. this rivalry is intensifying as the playoffs get closer and closer and as it becomes more and more apparent how well matched vancouver and calgary are. i give the edge to calgary myself because of the kipper. i can’t even imagine how that guy just makes the puck fly off and away from the net. it’s like he has a magic shield or something. okay not so magic, it’s 3-2 and suddenly it’s a hockey game again.

also? it cracks me up how canadian hockey announcers sound.

have you ever gotten some advice that sort of hit you upside the head? some words come out of the woodwork and into your life and just turn all of your understanding of something on it’s ass? thoughts that punch you in the gut?

well i got me some of that just the other day and i’m still sort of reeling. my brain is going around in circles except it’s doing it on whole new tracks. in fact it’s like the circles are laying new track. okay the metaphors are getting out of hand here.

anyway i really thought i had considered all of the possible ramifications of a certain situation and the friends that i consulted agreed with me that i had and then out of the blue? some new advice. a thought that didn’t come from my own head.

a thought with the ring of truth.

because that was the thing with all of the possibilities that *I* had come up with… none of them felt right. they felt like me trying to explain something but not necessarily me understanding something.

and what will i do with this new understanding? well my brain hasn’t finished mapping out the new paths but i’m thinking that the way that i do a lot of things will change now. or at least my perspective on a few things will be different forever.

that’s pretty cool from what was essentially two lines of text.

wow, it’s 3-3 and the third just ended and this game just went into sudden death overtime! woo hoo!

this really *is* the best game of the bunch! and there’s a penalty! damn you guys, i’m sad for you if you didn’t watch this game! and vancouver wins 4-3.

wow. wow. that was awesome!

have a good night kids!




    *fucking firefox*

    and how do i catch these rants the minute you post them? i think i’m your new stalker!

    just say thank you…

    Comment by Jenn! — January 8, 2006 @ 1:22 am | Reply

  2. fucking firefox is the best browser ever. except when it isn’t.

    yay i have a blog stalker!!

    Comment by sassinak — January 8, 2006 @ 1:28 am | Reply

  3. funny thing is that i was *away from the computer* and came back to this brilliant little tome of rantiness…seriously had me laughing….

    and yeah about firefox…kinda like guys

    Comment by Jenn! — January 8, 2006 @ 1:36 am | Reply

  4. not only do i get called brilliant BUT she uses the word TOME while doing it.

    glad to make you laugh, hope you enjoyed the hockey :)

    mmm men… almost as good as the wonder that is firefox


    Comment by sassinak — January 8, 2006 @ 2:43 am | Reply

  5. i’m too stubborn

    too stubborn to at least think i’m not as horrible as i think i am etc. my friends keep trying….i just won’t give.

    i refuse to let my perspective and perceptions be turned on their ass….at least until i’m ready to deal with whatever the change will bring.

    and…how the shit do you change profiles on firefox? mine crapped out today, and all of a sudden i’m on the default profile and everything i had bookmarked is gone. BASTARD MOZILLA!!

    Comment by da buttah — January 8, 2006 @ 3:10 am | Reply

  6. OHHHHH buttah that happened to me abotu a month ago.. man i was PISSED.. (and of course i do not know the answer)
    men=firefox?.. ummm

    sass:love the word “discombobulated”

    god you are hot when you play by play hockey… i think i got a new side career idea… might even make ya some dollas for that loft!

    Comment by sugarpunk — January 8, 2006 @ 5:06 am | Reply

  7. elle: yeah but new friends have voices that you haven’t learned the cadences of yet so it’s a LOT harder to ignore them… and this wasn’t about me, was about some circumstances in my life… not quite the same.

    that said, i guess i was ready to deal?

    uh i’ll look into the firefox thing later when i’m not running out to teach :)

    love firefox but when it’s crap it’s crap.

    punk: this men=firefox thing is gaining momentum :)

    i love that word sugar, i use it whenever i can :)

    yay i’m hot about hockey! *grin* somehow it doesn’t work on guys though…

    Comment by sassinak — January 8, 2006 @ 8:07 am | Reply

  8. Buttah:

    If your FF gives you some lip about default profile when it starts up, do a control-alt-delete, click on processes, then kill everything that says firefox.exe. Sometimes it goes south and doesn’t close down all of the way, kill it and it will come back like it is supposed to.

    Also, update to FF 1.5, much nicer. :D

    Hockey? :( Canes vs RedWings in Raleigh on TUESDAY NIGHT – and I won’t be there until Wednesday morning. Lower seats…125.00! Seats that are at the same elevation as Asheville (hahaha, nosebleeders) are 42 bucks. Crap, baseball sitting like 3 rows from the field was 20! Oh well. I’d go but I can’t be there until Wednesday am.

    Comment by castufari — January 8, 2006 @ 9:21 am | Reply

  9. cast: thanks for the tech support!

    as for hockey, that’s actually a LOT cheaper than it is HERE. gawd i want to go to another game… just don’t know if i can justify the ridiculous cost :(

    i think i might go see the ladies play…

    Comment by sassinak — January 8, 2006 @ 9:53 am | Reply

  10. sass: I was totally gonna tell you what castufari told you … seriously! LOL

    missed the games, caught the highlights on ESPN (about only way I can watch hockey, sorry LOL).

    hate advice that flips ya. unless it’s good advice. but even then, I hate it sometimes LOL

    hope your weekend was good and filled with fun and stuff :)

    Comment by DZER — January 8, 2006 @ 10:05 am | Reply

  11. I looooove me some firefox. It’s all I use.

    BUT…and this s mu suggestion to my kids whne they take the online class…work on word and then copy and paste to your browser…then you never get timed out or have to suffer because to the browser… burping you called it? lol loved that.

    Hey Elle is back :)

    And rant away…we sure love that!


    Comment by Natalia — January 8, 2006 @ 10:52 am | Reply

  12. I can’t use Firefox … because of the Clint Eastwood movie of the same name … LOL

    The future is Safari … once you go Mac, you never go back LOL

    Comment by DZER — January 8, 2006 @ 10:53 am | Reply

  13. I use Safari but it isn’t updated like FF. :D I wonder if they make Lynx for mac?

    There is a plug for blogspot that allows you to upload from Word.

    125 is cheap for hockey? Crap, I won’t bitch anymore. :)

    Comment by castufari — January 8, 2006 @ 11:13 am | Reply

  14. dzer: i believe you really i do… thousands wouldn’t but well… i do :)

    hey you can’t help it that your hockey coverage sucks ass… i mean guam isn’t really a hockey mecca after all.

    yeah flippy advice is awesome but it sucks nonetheless.

    nat: me too, or mozilla cause my shitty unix version crashes on google mail…

    i can’t use word, i use unix :)

    that said, yeah i really need to stop expecting the web to never burp and start working offline… anytime now really :)

    i love that y’all love my rants… it makes them so much more fun…

    dzer: safari mmmmmmmmmmmm
    macs mmmmmmmmmmm
    love me the macs :)

    Comment by sassinak — January 8, 2006 @ 11:18 am | Reply

  15. Maybe someone will make a Vi plugin for Lynx? :D

    Comment by castufari — January 8, 2006 @ 11:30 am | Reply

  16. cast: they do make lynx for mac… it’s called go to the terminal and download lynx *grin*

    i know about that plugin but it does butt fuckall for me since i’m all unixy.

    scary how expensive hockey is isn’t it?

    a vi plugin for lynx? eep!

    Comment by sassinak — January 8, 2006 @ 11:35 am | Reply

  17. wow didnt think tech talk could sound soooo … uhhh.. dirty!

    (going to get sass a big mac…??)

    Comment by sugarpunk — January 8, 2006 @ 1:15 pm | Reply

  18. *lmao*

    if i ate ground beef that would sound awesome…

    that said, a big scottish guy NAMED mac…?

    Comment by sassinak — January 8, 2006 @ 1:21 pm | Reply

  19. heyyyyyyyy see now sass there you are thinking… i like that

    Comment by sugarpunk — January 8, 2006 @ 1:44 pm | Reply

  20. oh man thinking… the thing i smoke pot to avoid….

    Comment by sassinak — January 8, 2006 @ 1:53 pm | Reply

  21. in NYC a big mac would be a buff cab driver

    Comment by Jenn! — January 8, 2006 @ 2:54 pm | Reply

  22. LOL sass me too ..

    oh sass wanna meet in nyc?.. jenn says its a good place to see some meat…

    Comment by sugarpunk — January 8, 2006 @ 3:09 pm | Reply

  23. another tart, yoga mat + nyc = a whole lotta naughty!!

    hahha….so sorry sass and en about the whole tart/yoga mat thing…i’m just digging the whole visual…hehehe…and i’m just silly….

    and a blogstalker…

    you guys are taking your chances with me…hehe

    Comment by Jenn! — January 8, 2006 @ 3:31 pm | Reply

  24. check this out!

    Comment by mightydoll — January 8, 2006 @ 5:59 pm | Reply

  25. jenn: mmm buff cab drivers… sounds good to me.

    punk: many people we both know of that i’m sure.

    hmmm nyc… sounds good to me… although my climbing gym is also good for that….

    jenn: oh damn… and EN would be in for that for sure. shit y’all we should do it… in like the summer so we have lots of time to plan!

    please don’t apologise, i love it and i’m sure i speak for bubbles when i say her too :)

    hey i even gave you your own section in the sidebar…

    doll: will do, thanks!

    Comment by sassinak — January 8, 2006 @ 7:24 pm | Reply

  26. oh how i heart me some sass!!

    Comment by Jenn! — January 8, 2006 @ 7:40 pm | Reply

  27. Damnit, Sass, I blow cuz I never comment anymore.

    K, I can’t say much about hockey cuz I don’t watch it regularly…but, um…the games rock live!

    Comment by Blondie — January 8, 2006 @ 7:58 pm | Reply

  28. yeah it’s funny that i picked my nick by accident and yet it’s the name my friends are most likely to use…

    well sass is more fun to say than ange i guess…

    Comment by sassinak — January 8, 2006 @ 7:59 pm | Reply

  29. men in nyc are SOO hot.

    oh my god

    i wanna go!!!

    (wait..i just got back home from there today….I’LL GO BACK!!)

    Comment by da buttah — January 8, 2006 @ 8:51 pm | Reply

  30. blondie: i miss your comments, your perspective always sheds a light on things…

    mmm hockey live. MUST DO THAT AGAIN!

    elle: okay. let’s meet in new york ladies.

    for serious?

    i need a few months before i can afford it, but i’ll be great by april?

    you were in new york? i’m SO jealous.


    Comment by sassinak — January 8, 2006 @ 9:11 pm | Reply

  31. flight from vegas to cleveland was delayed…so..i flew home with the boys..good thing to, because of all places, vegas had a power outage for 30 minutes in the southwest terminal…NOT good.

    so i flew from jfk to cleveland this afternoon.

    and i’m more than down to party in nyc….there’s no place like home, right? ;)

    Comment by da buttah — January 8, 2006 @ 9:11 pm | Reply

  32. i’m so in too (i think)…but april is a little tricky for me…i’ll keep you up on my work situation…but this sounds soooo fun…

    and hey to the rest of you that are in on the little nyc jaunt while tarting on a yoga mat…i’m jenn…maybe i should send a pic, cuz i sure as hell ain’t posting one cuz the blog godz that are hiding my blog from the ex gave me the heads up on that. i think you all know each other…so i guess the new kid oughta make a(n) (in)formal intro.

    Comment by Jenn! — January 8, 2006 @ 9:27 pm | Reply

  33. elle: the boys? who, pray tell, are the boys?

    nyc is one of those places i’ve only been a bit but i know that i fucking love it.

    although i haven’t found the food yet.

    jenn: when’s good for you? for anyone? so far it’s hypothetical. for me summer is WAY easier.

    hi jenn, i can’t swear i know a single person’s real name but i think i know a few of them. word on the pic, just don’t do it on your profile.

    we all like each other’s blogs pretty much :)

    welcome to snapshots ..

    Comment by sassinak — January 8, 2006 @ 9:46 pm | Reply

  34. summer is better for me too.

    snapshots? like real paper snapshots?? i was told that if i do any nudes, they should be only snapshots…exes, ya know?


    Comment by Jenn! — January 8, 2006 @ 9:56 pm | Reply

  35. the boys: ryan, eitan, and jake. they went to tahoe with me :)

    please…let me be your guide to all things awesome and cheap in nyc ;)

    Comment by da buttah — January 8, 2006 @ 9:59 pm | Reply

  36. long as it’s a weekend, i’m fine.

    i have summer classes…but, eh.

    Comment by da buttah — January 8, 2006 @ 9:59 pm | Reply

  37. jenn i was told the exact same thing in fact.

    yeah that ex shitt sucks. especially the sleeping nude part *grin*

    okay buttah i bet likes summer better too… or not? good dates elle? anyone else?

    should i write a post about this?

    Comment by sassinak — January 8, 2006 @ 10:00 pm | Reply

  38. 1 vote for yes

    Comment by Jenn! — January 8, 2006 @ 10:02 pm | Reply

  39. lately i suck at that writing what i say i will (i’ve suggested i’ll do several tags and quizzes… i can’t even remember what i owe)

    but i’ll try.

    Comment by sassinak — January 8, 2006 @ 10:08 pm | Reply

  40. elle: so weird your comments only showed up NOW to me… anyway i think it would have to be weekendy for me also, otherwise it would cost me too much in lost revenue…

    nice, i didn’t realise that the boys went boarding with you. are you going to post about the trip?

    please will you be my guide to all things cheap and nummalicious in nyc?

    Comment by sassinak — January 9, 2006 @ 1:56 am | Reply

  41. Hey Sass,

    Did I ever tell you we used to work out with Darcey Tucker and Shane Corson at one point….


    Comment by Daywalker — January 9, 2006 @ 4:06 pm | Reply

  42. you did
    and i was jealous

    but didn’t you say darcy tucker was married?


    Comment by sassinak — January 9, 2006 @ 11:06 pm | Reply

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