snapshots of an idle mind

February 6, 2006


Filed under: Uncategorized — sassinak @ 11:59 pm

there is something about sitting down at the keyboard with nothing to say that frees you to find out what you’re really thinking about. in this case it turns out that i think i need to take a week off from climbing.

it should be this week but mg as of saturday is working 16 days straight so i think i’ll take it easy this week and take next week off. i have this niggling thing going on with the lowest part of my wedding ring finger that especially hurts whenever i make a fist or try to grab a pocket.

but it’s more than that. my brain is refusing to cooperate. i’ll be sitting on a wall looking at a move that’s totally obvious and yet i can’t think of shit to do. i’ll try stuff sort of half heartedly and yet i’ll know before i try that it isn’t going to work.

i can’t finish a problem that i sent the first five times i tried it. (as in sent the FIRST time i ever did it)

this all shouts out ‘GET SOME REST!’ it’s just that i don’t want to. there’s some stuff going on in my head that seems to want to get tossed at a wall (although it’s mostly gone) and more than that my body is all addicted to the amount of exercise that it’s currently getting.

ah well, class with rr tomorrow and i’ll ask her about my hands.

there are a few bloggers who are very intermittent with how often they actually have a blog up and i’ve decided that since most of them make it about 6 weeks before they delete their blogs that i am no longer linking anyone until they’ve been up at least a couple of months. i’m sorry if this offends you but editing the links list on a weekly basis is getting to be irksome.

i’m literally staring at the screen and my fingers are twitching and yet nothing is coming out. this is tough because it feels like time to post. the truths post got both more and less reaction than i expected but the comments section for it is clearly dead. it was neat to see what truths hit what people. i still want to hear if any got you.

i’m having a very blah monday afternoon.

mmmm eggs and pita and potato patties. mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm

suddenly all things in life seem so much brighter!

okay it’s many hours later and i’ve done some teaching and some smoking and some scrabble with hubris and mightydoll and i have to say. that scrabble game?

no really. ever.

it was so bad i can’t even tell you. they fully concur by the way, it was bad. the board was all crazy and closed and impossible and we stopped even challenging if we didn’t think that things were words.

don’t misunderstand, the company was excellent and many laughs were shared. extra in fact because the recent supply we acquired is fucking excellent. no dudes. *i* am saying it’s fucking excellent.


anyway at least we were laughing our fool heads off while having the worst scrabble game ever. that helped a lot.

i’m currently expanding my repertoire of books. in other words i’ve read all of the science fiction and fantasy books and so i need to find something else to read. i sort of feel like i’ve read most of the mysteries and the romances also so i’ve taken to soliciting book advice from just about anyone.

this is getting pretty fun actually because i’ve just read tania’s stolen david sedaris book and it’s excellent. i’m reading ‘a long way down’ by nick hornby right now and man is that book ever funny for a book about a bunch of suicidal nutcases. hubris tonight lent me a wonderful looking cover called about looking by john berger. it looks great and i’m really looking forward to it.

i can’t explain why i feel like it will be a great book but i said ‘lend me the one book in your collection you really want me to read’ so i have high hopes.

it’s really fun exploring other people’s books. i’ve been doing it with my sister and my parents my whole life but we’re all related so at this point there’s a lot of commonalities. i do need to get my hands on my parents book shelves in italy though, there’s a stack and a half of books there that i want to read.

they really want me to come and visit and i can’t figure out how to make it happen. i’ve been living too close to the bone for too many years now and i just can’t seem to make a cushion. i will be done fixing the car soon but damm i’m cutting it close. i’m waiting for a thousand bucks from one place and it may or may not come this week. i really need it because yeah it pays the mechanic in one fell swoop.

dear universe. send cheque please, i can’t wait any more. the clutch is being described as ‘borderline’ now and i’m expected to be smelling burning.


who wants to take a picture of my back for uncle matt? and i want pretty pictures too so you better know how to use a camera.

i have a client in less than seven hours. and then a class and a client and a session with rr and THEN two more classes. that’s one shy of the number i need to teach in a tuesday to make it a worthy day.

ah well time for a new client or two.

see what happens when you complain about being busy? life is funny.

but you know what?





  1. hey i like your blogs without focus… ya know me.. i have no focus and so i follow along rather nicely …

    and i came back to say hi again .. cuz i missed the sassydad HI.. and sassymom

    and to see if we were discussing the same areas.. (its been a while since ive had to use my med term skills)

    Comment by sugarpunk — February 7, 2006 @ 2:10 am | Reply

  2. oh yeah and i forgot to comment on THIS post…

    eggs and taters are GREAT.. as well as a scrabble game in that condition!!! :)

    Comment by sugarpunk — February 7, 2006 @ 2:11 am | Reply

  3. have you read “altered carbon” and “broken angels” by richard k. morgan yet? well, have you?

    Comment by factory_peasant — February 7, 2006 @ 3:11 am | Reply

  4. a friend loaned me “the famished road” by ben okri. betcha haven’t read that one.

    and i feel all ready to face the day after that unfocused post. i feel like i had my mental workout for the morning…i hope that sounds as nice as i mean it to…cuz i’m not feeling the love in my own words…eloquence escapes me…like always. maybe i should just say…great post! that’s self explanatory, and works…

    Comment by Jenn! — February 7, 2006 @ 7:09 am | Reply

  5. punk: anyone reading my blog would laugh their heads off if i tried to claim that i had any focus :)

    are you trying to adopt my parents *grin*

    you have med term skills? from what?

    the scrabble was hilariously bad. we were joking about the badness for most of the game.

    and yes, breakfast is one of my favourite meals ever.

    peasant: no, no i haven’t. i take it you suggest it?

    jenn: you’re right, i haven’t

    oh man, i make people do mental gymnastics AND i make debambam exhausted. i *think* that’s good *giggling*

    i’m glad you liked it, i’ll have to read it again cause i thought it was sorta lame…

    Comment by sassinak — February 7, 2006 @ 7:20 am | Reply

  6. (>>>takes mental picture of Sassy’s back, then sunconsciously takes one of her front)

    OK now how do I send these to you Matt?

    Comment by Mike — February 7, 2006 @ 8:05 am | Reply

  7. sass: im just trying to be fair and all… i am lucky in some respects .. i see mine all the time.. :)

    med term?.. i used to work in a hospital as a unit clerk..
    dude.. i am focused .. or trying to focus all the time .. LOL

    Comment by sugarpunk — February 7, 2006 @ 8:34 am | Reply

  8. WOW!! SUI – Scrabble under the influence… AWESOME!!!

    See, now that kinda game is the kinda game I kinda want to play…

    for a game that is.

    Soooo, this back picture taken for Uncle Matt…. ummm… k, if you’re taking picture requests can I ask for one?

    NONONO it wont be naughty, I still just want to see you in that shrug!!!

    smooches, luvums, and all the happy thoughts in the world!!!

    Comment by Everything nice — February 7, 2006 @ 10:32 am | Reply

  9. Mike – we need to be wearing tin foil helmets simultaneously. Just let me know when you’ve got yours on, then think “send” and I’ll get it pretty much right away.

    Comment by Matt Vella — February 7, 2006 @ 10:59 am | Reply

  10. Sass – David Sedaris is one of the funniest authors I’ve ever had the pleasure of reading. Read them all, laughing is good excercise. :)

    I am a huge fan of cop / detective fiction. One of the more tongue in cheek authors in that area is Carl Hiasson. Great stuff – pick a book, any book – it’s a guaranteed good’n.

    Comment by Matt Vella — February 7, 2006 @ 11:06 am | Reply

  11. yep. both books by Morgan are excellent especially if you enjoy Philip K. Dick stuff. not gonna say much more than that ’cause i don’t want to spoil it for ya.

    and one final sci-fi recommendation. an often overlooked classic is “Earth Abides” by George R. Stewart. definitely one of my all-time favorites.

    Comment by factory_peasant — February 7, 2006 @ 12:25 pm | Reply

  12. I’d take the picture but it’s a bit of a drive.

    I haven’t read scifi in years since I really can’t sit down and read for more than 30 minutes w/o some interruption. I do watch it, I just finished Firefly, which ruled.

    Breakfast? Damn you, I had to do a 12h fast for a cholesterol check and my pre fast meal was beans and rice, hardly enough to get me through 12 hours. Thankfully there was a Starbucks nearby I was able to get my sugar back up to normal levels rather quickly.

    Speaking off food, it’s lunch once again.

    Comment by castufari — February 7, 2006 @ 12:28 pm | Reply

  13. mike: what’s a sunconscious?

    punk: yeah you are lucky. i see mine sorta regularly in the summer and almost never in the winter. hopefully i can make it next year…

    i did not know you used to do that… that’s cool dude. and explains how you knew what i meant :)

    bubbles: it was awesome except for the whole terrible words and shitty board problem.

    and yeah of course that’s your sort of game, you and i are more alike than either of us admits on a regular basis.

    dude i’m TRYING to get a shrug pic but i don’t have any real photogs in my circle… so it depends if you want a snapshot or a ‘photo’


    matt: uh you guys are making me nervous.

    as for david sedaris? i will definetely read them all. in fact i realise i’ve read some of his stuff other places without realising it.

    hiasson huh? okay. i recommend jj jance in that case :)

    peasant: cool it’s on my list. i’m reading about a book a month these days due to lack of time so that will take a bit as my input queue is kinda large.

    but yeah will do. dunno if i can bear another sci fi novel… i’ve read thousands of them. but that good huh?

    cast: heh that’s okay you’re excused.

    firefly was awesome and fox sux donkey balls for cancelling it.

    mmmm breakfast rocks! currently? nutella, granola, green&black organic dark chocolate, blackberry yoghurt with live cultures, blackberries and blueberries.


    Comment by sassinak — February 7, 2006 @ 12:43 pm | Reply

  14. okay

    is it sad that i am, as yet, undefeated in scrabble (except for one debacle where a guy, who is in the mnilitary, out strategized me..and won, not for his words, but for his placement of such shit words as “the”…)?

    i’m a scrabble whore. it’s sad, really.


    and enjoy sunday mornings ;)

    Comment by da buttah — February 7, 2006 @ 12:51 pm | Reply

  15. elle: that isn’t sad at all.

    i’m not undefeated at scrabble at all but i always do well except when the board is totally fucked like it was last night. it was so fucked that between first and last (third) was FIFTEEN points only.

    the whole strategy thing bugs me. i mean sure don’t open up the triple word score if you can help it but otherwise just play the words.

    love me some scrabble, you can kick my ass anytime.

    dude i never go to bed early enough, it’s terrible.


    Comment by sassinak — February 7, 2006 @ 1:02 pm | Reply

  16. My fav authors: Patricial Cornwell, Katharine Kerr, Richard North Patterson and one thats a little different and I have to be in the mood for is Ursurla Le Guin. If I was a little closer i’d lend you my fav book!

    Hope your money arrives soon..maybe you can get one of those vibrating joysticks thats not for PS2 like you wanted!!!

    Comment by debambam — February 7, 2006 @ 6:11 pm | Reply

  17. I have never really played much scrabble. It would be a much funner game if people didn’t try to upmake words and try to offpass them.

    Still, I’d love to try it.

    Keep Elle’s latest post in mind when you read the following…
    I’m a photographer, I have taken pictures of movie stars. I can’t reveal their names of course, but you would recognize them if I said their names.
    I can take a picture of your back.

    Comment by Mike — February 7, 2006 @ 7:26 pm | Reply

  18. deb: i’ve read kk and ulg but yeah you have to be in the mood for le guin.

    i have a huge library of books for lending.

    oh man i really did want one of those. first i have to get a clutch and then some shoes and then a seal and then some shoes first though :)

    mike: scrabble is excellent fun in any state. especially good for family gatherings with the ‘other family’ cause then you don’t have to talk.

    so you’re a terrible photographer then?

    Comment by sassinak — February 7, 2006 @ 8:56 pm | Reply

  19. Who’s coming over tonight for yummy buttered chicken and eggplant dip?

    So healthy…yet so unhealthy.


    Sass, you don’t know what I’m like with first meetings with the “other family”. Parents love me because I’m not a psycho, which seems to be a common problem or something.
    I love meeting mom and dad.

    As far as my pictue taking skills, one of my best friends from high school went to university to become a photographer. Ya, no I’m serious.
    All I need is a compass…or for the person to sing so I get the general direction. That would be especially true in your case because if I was taking a picture of your nekkid back I’d need to have my eyes closed….

    Comment by Mike — February 7, 2006 @ 9:33 pm | Reply

  20. Oops on second read that sounded bad. I diudn’t mean my eyes would be closed because you are hideous, only because since you’d be topless. I’m such a gentleman.

    Comment by Mike — February 7, 2006 @ 10:23 pm | Reply

  21. Yay, purty pitchers!!!

    Comment by Matt Vella — February 7, 2006 @ 10:40 pm | Reply

  22. I don’t think I’ve ever had what you described but is sounds all very yummy.

    And yaay for rambling blogging :) Everything RIGHT about that!

    Our bodies have interesting ways of telling us to slow down and take time off. I don’t foreses any in my near future. So, I am trying my best to get my sleep in when I can.

    Although I must say that I remember from the days I went to the gym daily that energy begets energy. And I need that. I need energy to be begotten… Or something that makes more sense.

    The good news is that the condo has a gym. YAAY! So I can walk my fat ass over there and exercise :)


    Comment by Natalia — February 7, 2006 @ 11:06 pm | Reply

  23. Oh…and the book you asked about is called 20,000 Quips & Quotes. The editor is Evan Esar and it is, apparently, a Barnes & Noble book.



    Comment by Natalia — February 7, 2006 @ 11:09 pm | Reply

  24. scrabble whore… hmmm.

    that might make for a good online deathmatch nick. heh.

    Comment by factory_peasant — February 7, 2006 @ 11:19 pm | Reply

  25. And JJ Jance – check.

    Comment by Matt Vella — February 7, 2006 @ 11:28 pm | Reply

  26. mike: don’t say butter chicken. butter chicken is my favourite food basically. it’s tantamount to teasing. that said, i don’t think you’re referring to the indian dish…

    what is up with eggplant, can someone please explain the fan base to me? (okay i confess to the baba ghanoush love[how do you spell ganoush?])

    my parents are pretty cool but they adopt a wait and see approach. probably wise.

    you have a good photographer friend? damm that’s sort of tempting. i don’t know if i’m up to actual photography photography… maybe next year.

    well i might wear a top, it’s hard to say.

    matt: in exchange? you show me yours.

    Comment by sassinak — February 7, 2006 @ 11:52 pm | Reply

  27. nat: it was delicious yes. so was the delivery chinese food.

    i love ramble blogs it’s true, i just didn’t think this was one of my better posts. not that i was upset by it but it wasn’t awesome or whatever. ahh you know what i mean.

    sleep is good, i’m doing that shortly. no 6am tomorrow which is way helpful.

    energy does beget energy, the more you exercise the more you want to exercise. and used correctly exercise suppresses hunger.

    don’t call your ass fat, it feels bad about it already. (yay on the gym though!)

    cool that book sounds fun.

    peasant: online deathmatch

    in scrabble.

    in the red corner we have factory peasant and in the blue corner we have da buttah. place yer bets ladies and germs!

    matt: :)

    Comment by sassinak — February 7, 2006 @ 11:55 pm | Reply

  28. Out of curiousity I looked up some info on Pilates so that I had a bit of an idea what it is. I found this:

    The reason I mention it is that I have a slight problem with my left leg (muscle-related) and I’m going to try this.

    Comment by Mike — February 8, 2006 @ 12:01 am | Reply

  29. Sass – deal.

    Comment by Matt Vella — February 8, 2006 @ 12:08 am | Reply

  30. mike: i’m curious to know what happens.

    let me know if you need advice.

    matt: now to find a photographer

    Comment by sassinak — February 8, 2006 @ 12:21 am | Reply

  31. I’ll go first. :)

    Comment by Matt Vella — February 8, 2006 @ 1:28 am | Reply

  32. Oh no, dude…my ass is fat and it knows it and being a part of me, it likes honesty :) But my ass is also very excited about the gym… yaay! There is no excuse when the place is walking distance and you can access it 24 hours :P


    Comment by Natalia — February 8, 2006 @ 8:44 am | Reply

  33. matt: that’s cool since me finding someone with a digicam is always a task

    nat: well okay i guess, but i lecture my clients for that sort of talk. course i also used to get pissed when people said ‘you’re not fat’ and i was tipping 230.

    course i’m not saying ‘you’re not fat’ just that you should be nicer to your ass :)

    yay gym! that’s awesome.

    Comment by sassinak — February 8, 2006 @ 8:45 am | Reply

  34. eggplant? eggplant is pure goodness. I forgot the “when cooked correctly” disclaimer. I slice mine thin, salt it, hit with some olive oil, then grill. Yum yum.

    backs rule. I need to do a new pic of my recently reformed back. if I can get the gym lass to take it I’ll do one when I’m doing 310# seated rows.

    Comment by castufari — February 8, 2006 @ 8:45 am | Reply

  35. cast: no

    eggplant is awful stuff. and trust me i’ve tried it at least a hundred times and other than baba ghanoush i can’t stand it.

    and yeah, backs are awesome.

    Comment by sassinak — February 8, 2006 @ 8:47 am | Reply

  36. I have a great scanner/printer/copier/fax thingy so if you guys have to go with stone-age physical photos, just send or bring them to me and I’ll turn them into 1’s and 0’s for you. And fax them too if you want.

    Regarding eggplant, I’ve found that there are a lot of foods that sound yucky and that were never served in my family, which are quite yummy.
    The trick is to be experimental and to have had an ex who was a vegetarian. Vegetarians can introduce us to yumminess that we’ve never imagined.

    The only problem with vegetarians is they tend to have small boobies. And they are a pain in the ass at Thankgiving.

    Comment by Mike — February 8, 2006 @ 8:59 am | Reply

  37. i’m not sure if you know this, there’s another way of keeping track with the blogs.

    you’d know whenever a blog publishes, so you dont have to go and check out each blog everytime. but you’d miss out on the comments bit unless you visit the blog itself.

    P.S. i’m sorry for making you take down and put on my bloglink the other time.

    Comment by stoned.nerd — February 8, 2006 @ 12:12 pm | Reply

  38. mike: i don’t actually know any photogs so i’ll probably get my best friend to really uncomfortably take a pic of my back and post it. and it probably won’t be pretty.

    that said, i’m in no rush.

    eggplant doesn’t SOUND yucky it IS yucky. it makes my mouth pucker up and my face scrinch up and i’ve tried it like 100 ways. i’m always willing to try one more but man. it’s pretty scary shit.

    yeah my ex was a veg and i’m way more vegetarian because of him.

    his family just had both kinds of turkey and everyone was happy.

    nerd: yeah i did bloglines but it got annoying. it’s mostly just the links thingy.

    but i have a blogroll blog at that blogrolls and that way i don’t have to let it load HERE cause that takes too long.

    ps. no worries, you had a very very very good reason :)

    Comment by sassinak — February 8, 2006 @ 2:25 pm | Reply

  39. Yaay GYM indeed! I can’t wait to move.


    Comment by Natalia — February 8, 2006 @ 9:59 pm | Reply

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