snapshots of an idle mind

May 25, 2006


Filed under: Uncategorized — sassinak @ 11:56 pm

because bubbles wants to know what i would say… and so do i. the original tag questions are in caps, the ones bubbles added have *’s in front and mine are without emphasis…

I AM: stoned

I SAID: less than i used to

I WANT: sex

I WISH: it didn’t hurt so much

I HATE: the idea of hatred

I MISS: my grandfather

I FEAR: love… death… love…

I HEAR: the fridge… and my fingers on the keys and my cats eating and a computer fan

I WONDER: how i feel

I REGRET: not taking the initiative

I AM NOT: tired

I DANCE: whenever i hear dancing… whether there’s music playing or not and whether anyone else is dancing or not

I SING: at band practise and in the car

I CRY: for long distance commercials… but never for myself.

I AM NOT ALWAYS: as generous or compassionate as i would be

I MADE: a lot of mistakes

I WRITE: on my hands to remind myself to do things

I CONFUSE: my clients because it’s very hard to put movement into words… but we muddle through

I NEED: more sleep

I SHOULD: go to bed right now

I START: a lot of books

I FINISH: almost all of them

*I believe: in the inherent good nature of the human being… and that my cat is really really excellent

*I know: very little

*I can: yes

*I can’t: i can

*I see: your bones when i look at you… and your moods from the way you hold your body… or the way your body holds you… or? more than you wish me to.

*I blog: less than i want to but more than i should

*I read: everything

*I am aroused by: skin, breath, intellect, wit, long slow deep back rubs, spring, some music, great food and rare people’s pheremones

*It pisses me off: how few people’s pheremones work for me *grin* [but oh when they do]

*I find: that all too often i would rather blog than sleep. i would also rather read, watch tv, fuck, smoke weed, talk, play video games, eat, insert cool shit here, than sleep

*I like: myself. at last

*I love: my family, my cats, my friends, books, chocolate, movement, the internet, eye candy, brain candy and my city.

i understand: that i do not always need to share what i see

i fail to understand: how people can be without compassion for each other and how greed would ever seem better than sharing

i never: say things i don’t mean

i rarely: get lost

i occasionally: manage not to order the fries

i regularly: fail to answer email

i often: lose track of the conversation i’m in because my brain went on seven tangents at once… or forty two.

i always: check my email as soon as i get out of bed (when i’m at home and often when i’m not)

i without exception: hate wearing underwear.

i laugh: easily and occasionally unself consciously

i ask: for what i want. most of the time

i trust: anyone, but i keep my eyes open

i am saddened: that i need to keep my eyes open

i listen: better every day

i would: be the change i wish to see

I can’t tag anyone because everybody has already been tagged or done something similar, so I suppose I would like it if you have read this and want to do it, to please let me know because I would be thrilled and delighted to see what you come up with…



  1. yeehaw, I’m first to post a comment!!



    Comment by DZER — May 26, 2006 @ 4:39 am | Reply

  2. now that the No. 1 thing is taken care of, the real comment … LOL:

    I WANT … you to get sex, under your terms and conditions

    I LOVE … that you are so carefree with dancing

    I KNOW … that there’s no way you’re worse at e-mailing than I am ;)


    Comment by DZER — May 26, 2006 @ 4:41 am | Reply

  3. The cry one…yup that is me as well. I think it’s a sign of some type of mental disorder…so we have that going for us…lol. Loved this one…you are not afraid to put anything out on the table…very nice…

    Comment by Casually Me — May 26, 2006 @ 5:14 am | Reply

  4. I love this list

    The regret one was touching…….I agree

    Comment by Kristen — May 26, 2006 @ 8:08 am | Reply

  5. dzer: you said shazam! *chuckling*

    trust me i am something like 300 emails down. now about 200 of them just need filed and organized but still… that’s a lot of email to be behind…

    i don’t really understand how not to dance constantly, it’s just a part of me now.

    cas: probably. i’m definetely a little more broken than i like to admit… the tears got shoved away a long time back. i’m hoping i release them eventually with all the bodywork that i do…

    i loved this tag, it was really fun.

    kris: feel free to steal it, it was a bubbles tag and she opened it to everyone.

    i think women are inherently less good at taking the initiative… but i think that’s changing too.

    Comment by sassinak — May 26, 2006 @ 8:57 am | Reply

  6. I miss my grandfather too. I know it’s not always the best thing to have kinds at a very young age but so often when people do, they get the opportunity to have these multigenerational family get-togethers and it’s so awesome watching that.

    Then again, it wouldn’t have mattered in my case. All my grandparents passed by the time I was 19. And babies at 19 would NOT be acceptable in my family!

    I’m off on a tangent now so I’m really feeling your “i often”

    Great post!

    Comment by JMai — May 26, 2006 @ 9:27 am | Reply

  7. BUBBLES LOVES YOU. For every single thing you’ve put here and all the unconscience cliff notes that fall in between the lines. ;)

    Email is the devil. LOL. And I still owe you my damn speech!!!

    I will make good on promises this weekend, and I now blow a puff of smoke into the air in your honor and have you know that you to me are like the sunshine after a warm spring rain :)

    Comment by Everything Nice — May 26, 2006 @ 11:57 am | Reply

  8. jmai mine died when i was nine. well they both did but i only knew one of them well. it was a terrible year for my parents as they lost their fathers within months of each other.

    yeah i know what you mean… i wish i’d had a kid at 20 because they would have their grandparents for so much longer… and met one of their greats…. ah well.

    yeah my family isn’t so big on the early kids either *g*

    tangent on!



    bubbles: *huggles* i loves you too :)

    there are a lot of cliff notes that fall between the lines but you may be seeing more than i am aware of… you tend to do that.

    email sucks, and i love it!

    i’m looking forward to reading your speech, should be pretty interesting. i will blow smoke in your honor in three hours and a bit… deal?

    mmm sunshine with spring rain smell… *melts*

    Comment by sassinak — May 26, 2006 @ 12:12 pm | Reply

  9. I like reading these. :)

    Comment by green_hedonist — May 26, 2006 @ 12:36 pm | Reply

  10. i like doing them :)

    Comment by sassinak — May 26, 2006 @ 1:44 pm | Reply

  11. 6.5 hours and I will blow some smoke in your honor, as well. :) Courtesy of Big Al.

    Comment by Matt Vella — May 26, 2006 @ 3:22 pm | Reply

  12. *blows smoke*


    big al?

    Comment by sassinak — May 26, 2006 @ 4:28 pm | Reply

  13. i love: what you wrote here.

    i have: nothing clever to say about it.

    i will: shut up now.

    Comment by terry — May 26, 2006 @ 7:24 pm | Reply

  14. Big Al is one of the guys that comments on my blog – he sent me a care package from the Netherlands!

    Comment by Matt Vella — May 26, 2006 @ 8:21 pm | Reply

  15. terry: that comment is fucking awesome.

    i’m just: saying :)

    matt: nice!

    that’s fucking awesome. i had no idea you could mail that sort of thing.

    Comment by sassinak — May 26, 2006 @ 10:32 pm | Reply

  16. i consider that high praise, indeed..!

    and you kids be careful with those packages. i suppose the feds are too busy screening our phone calls to notice, but still…

    Comment by terry — May 26, 2006 @ 10:55 pm | Reply

  17. terry: well i’m flattered that my praise means so much. i love your blog too :)

    apparently all you do is mail it to mike violet and he tosses it on the fridge and leaves it there for a week or two and then claims he tossed it if anyone comes knocking… or whatever.

    not that i’ve ever done it but that’s what i’ve heard.

    Comment by sassinak — May 26, 2006 @ 11:25 pm | Reply

  18. I always like getting to know you better.
    I HATE wearing underwear too.

    Comment by kathi — May 27, 2006 @ 12:07 am | Reply

  19. I think: your “i” needs to be capatilized because I think you are Important.

    I hope: you find someone to fill your body and mind

    I believe: that while you say you need “repairs” you have evolved from what you were into a beautfil person inside and out, we all grow. Like a tree we prune, nurse, water, and grow. When we stop growing it means we are dead.

    I listen: to your point of view, your insight and point of view.

    I am: better, in part b/c of you.

    Comment by HuneeB — May 27, 2006 @ 1:11 am | Reply

  20. kathi: i love the format of this tag, actually i loved all the tags i’ve done if the truth be known :)

    really now… you’re one of the few to say it out loud :)

    hunee: i thank you for thinking that i’m important but if i capitalise that i then i have to capitalise all the other letters when they get to be first and then my pinky finger would hurt :)

    i hope that hope for everyone… whatever they’re looking for :)

    i believe that you are right.

    i try to listen to everyone but i don’t always manage it. but it’s the trying that’s hard.

    wow. thank you. that is an amazing compliment :)

    Comment by sassinak — May 27, 2006 @ 1:53 am | Reply

  21. and your moods from the way you hold your body..

    Yeah…me too.
    Maybe it’s a job hazzard?

    I forgot who said this but “The body doesn’t lie”

    I tell my actors/dancers that all the time. You can’t ‘fake’ happy or sad for that matter.

    Am I making sense?

    Comment by Madame X — May 27, 2006 @ 7:44 am | Reply

  22. My grandpa died when I was 11. My grandma from the other side died when I was 17. I miss them. I miss my grandma who is in Buenos Aires. And I miss my grandpa who is in Buenos Aires and lost contact with the family after his wife died. It’s like she was the connection and he just couldn’t bear it. It’s weird, I know. And I probably should be angry at him. But I mostly miss him and respect his decision.


    Comment by Anonymous — May 27, 2006 @ 10:29 am | Reply

  23. Why am I anonymous????


    Comment by Natalia — May 27, 2006 @ 10:30 am | Reply

  24. madame: i think maybe it is… i mean you see enough men walking penis forward and you note that their attitudes all match and then bang a body language connection is made in your brain… i like it though.

    you cannot fake that stuff, you have to put it into your body and make it true or it doesn’t work. i have no idea who said that but you’re totally right AND you’re making sense :)

    nat: i would miss him… and i might run off to BA and see if i can’t track him down nonetheless.

    can you go back there or is it too far and too complicated?

    no idea why you’re anonymous :)

    Comment by sassinak — May 27, 2006 @ 6:16 pm | Reply

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