snapshots of an idle mind

August 9, 2006

break break break

Filed under: Uncategorized — sassinak @ 11:54 pm

okay here goes.

*wanders off to kitchen and juices an orange*

holy fuck it takes a whole orange to get four ounces of juice? i should have bought a bag full!

*adds water to juice*

*takes sip*

*hangs out with tummy for a bit*

well let’s see what happens as i take in my first calories in six days. well my first non-fast drink type of calories. this has been a very strange and excellent experience and i’m actually sorry that i’m not doing it for longer.

however, i want to drink beer on my birthday and i need at least four days to break this fast. it’s strange that it’s with orange juice which is something that my tummy traditionally dislikes and that it seems to be going down okay right now.

that said? it’s taken me nearly an hour to drink this glass of juice and i won’t have another one for at least a couple of hours. i do feel it sort of warming the pipes though. it’s almost like my tongue and my digestive system are tingly or something.

i see why they pick orange juice. it’s sharp and tangy but easy to water down and it feels like it’s priming the pump inside me. damm y’all it’s got me kind of high.

then i had to go and ruin it by going to do my license renewal. in the afternoon.

yeah, what the hell was i thinking, next time do it in the morning!!

but i’m all legal and paid for to drive for another year so i guess i can’t bitch too much.

okay so now it’s ten hours since i had that first glass of juice and i am now drinking a third glass. i’ve been steadily adding more pulp to the mix all day and it’s really tasting good now.

what i find most odd is that the orange juice really isn’t making me more hungry. i was expecting that the hardest part would be the day while i drink juice but still can’t actually have any food. i thought i would be starving all day.

nope, i think the acidity in the oj is actually keeping the urge not to eat going the same way the lemon juice did. so weird.

i’m really glad that i did this and in fact i’m wishing that i had done it for longer and started it tuesday morning instead of thursday afternoon. that way i would have done eight days instead of six. ah well, next time.

this is probably the first thing i’ve ever done where i felt like y’all wanted an actual report.

the weirdest part for me is either that it’s really so easy to do or that your moods really do change each day and different things come to the forefront. y’all know about saturday and my ragefest and that was definetely the worst, but the hopeless despair on sunday sucked too.

what’s interesting is that i read a website that says that this will continue to happen because your body is flushing toxins and that you just drink more fluid and make sure to move your bowels at least three times a day and this will pass easily.

well for me it’s even better, once i got the freaking plumbing working (aka sucked it up and drank the laxative tea) my mood was happy and cheerful and i didn’t have any headaches.

before i got the plumbing working correctly? oh my god. i had a headache bad enough to flatten a quarterback and i was ragingly mad or depressed or basically not on an even emotional keel. i mean we’re talking night and day, the last three days have been lovely.

saturday and sunday? pretty shitty.

the headache i had on the weekend did give me one clue though, next time? quit caffeine at least a week or even ten days before you start a fast because holy fuck the withdrawl headaches suck. and you can’t fix them with food and sugar like you can when you’re eating.

boo yeah caffeine headaches combined with toxins and not shitting? bad stuff let me tell you.

so tomorrow i have more lemon drink and more juice and then i can have vegetable soup for late lunch or dinner. i’ll decide based on how a cup of the soup broth goes down at lunch. i’m currently wandering the web looking for soup recipes that go with:

In the evening make a vegetable broth (no canned soup). Use seasonal leafy and root vegetables such as: beets and beet tops, turnips and turnip greens, kale, carrots, onions, parsley, celery, potatoes, okra, one or two inds of legumes, squash, beans, a little salt, cayenne pepper and dehydrated vegetables or veg. powder may be added for flavor (no MSG or hydrolyzed protein).
Cook lightly. Drink the broth, eating only a few bites of the vegetables.

make a vegetable broth? how much water? how many carrots? how long is lightly? how on earth do squash and celery cook for the same amound of time? what the fuck? i hate not having a recipe. any home cooks out there have some tips for me? it’s looking like about 8 cups of water to however much of whichever veg i feel like using…

and re the legumes? which ones do y’all think would go well in that crazy mix? i was just going to get some peas or something but it’s tough.

*grumble* not making this easy are they?

seriously i don’t make soup, if anyone has advice before noon on thursday i WANT IT! :)

hey tomorrow is thursday… that means if i go wandering the web right now i’ll find a bunch of half naked peole. sorry i got nothing but my computer died and i’m on the old slow one with no pics. :)

oh wait… here’s one of me as a baby… okay toddler

those colours are real.

i know, hard to believe :)


  1. am i first? really??

    no way!

    Comment by terry — August 10, 2006 @ 12:25 am | Reply

  2. okay, now that we’ve established that..

    i hate not having recipes, too. i mean, i love to improvise… but i feel i need a good foundation to start with.

    legumes? how about lentils? they’re yummy in soup.

    i’m so impressed with your ability to fast. and the caffeine withdrawal can kill you, unless you phase it out slowly.

    that picture! omigod! look at all that blonde hair! adorable.

    Comment by terry — August 10, 2006 @ 12:27 am | Reply

  3. terry: yup yup

    terry two: second too!

    dude he could at least make a suggestion of quantity or something. i mean i get that i’m supposed to be all vegetarian cooking hottie or whatever but come on!

    yeah but i have to start the lentils earlier today right? like with the soaking and all… otherwisei have to cook the soup for days. i dig them though they’re awesome.

    the fasting thing has been excellent, really i recommend it. maybe once you’re more routine though and i would start on a long weekend (thursday was a good day from that perspective… just wish i had more days)

    or not, whatever, i felt i needed to fast, everyone else has to do their thing.

    i know, how ridiculously adorable was i? it’s almost painful!

    Comment by sassinak — August 10, 2006 @ 12:37 am | Reply

  4. Seriously, that is one the most gorgeous pictures…not just because you’re so absolutely adorable, but it’s freakin beautiful with all the green and pink, and you’ve got the most gorgeous hair and skin tone. Love this pic. The eyes…still you!

    Comment by Kathi McIntire Bratcher — August 10, 2006 @ 12:48 am | Reply

  5. kathi: isn’t it beautiful? my parents were mad for the photos for a few years and i happen to have been born when it started… and my mother to this day loves the flower porn.

    i think dad took this pic actually… and it blows me away how outrageously pretty it is!

    i hadn’t noticed that about the eyes but you’re right… and the shape of my face is there too.

    Comment by sassinak — August 10, 2006 @ 12:52 am | Reply

  6. You rock the fasting. I, on the other hand, lasted a day because of the mighty menstruation gods. So I am now waiting for the pain and the bleeding to go away so I can cleanse…cause..yeah.

    That is a totally amazing pic. Look at your cheeks…damn! Aren’t you glad you have it for posterity?


    Comment by Natalia — August 10, 2006 @ 1:09 am | Reply

  7. nat: yeah i’m really glad i have it for posterity.

    and you know with the fasting? i’ve been sort of off food all summer, it’s really easy to fast when you don’t live in air conditioning and it’s hotter than fuck 24/7. fasting in the winter would kill me.

    well you still want to do it so there’s nothing stopping you right?

    Comment by sassinak — August 10, 2006 @ 1:16 am | Reply

  8. Gold 2 cut your fuel intake! missile locks! Gold 2 BREAK BREAK BREAK! Gold 2!

    Comment by Anonymous — August 10, 2006 @ 2:20 am | Reply

  9. you lived in fairlyland as a child? LOL

    and how do you feel? do you feel cleansed and purged?

    one of the big complaints by folks here on the vegan cleansing thing are that the first few days are worst, with lots of headaches reported. Glad you’re past that stage :)

    Comment by DZER — August 10, 2006 @ 3:07 am | Reply

  10. Thanks for the report. Judging from your blog posts/comments on this experience, fasting would be a worthwhile effort! Is there more to look forward to in the coming week as your body re-integrates back into normalcy?

    It is amazing how that small child bears many resemblances to you now. Blond little cutie. Very nice picture indeed.

    Comment by Pyrhonik — August 10, 2006 @ 3:31 am | Reply

  11. Those colors are amazing and you as a child is precious………..

    no clue on the soup

    Comment by Kristen — August 10, 2006 @ 6:44 am | Reply

  12. wow. k. thats one of the cutest things I’ve ever seen :)

    Comment by Hubris Humility — August 10, 2006 @ 8:12 am | Reply

  13. Yeah…I generally have short periods. I should be able to get back to the fasting in a few days.


    Comment by Natalia — August 10, 2006 @ 9:25 am | Reply

  14. anon: i read you red leader! cutting fuel! breaking right!

    dzer: heh, sort of. i had a lake and a beautiful garden with a strawberry patch and rocks and trees to climb and parents who paid attention to me. so yeah.

    actually i feel awesome, i just really wish i had done the whole ten days.

    i really blame the headaches on the coffee and the not pooing, i’ll let you know next time if it’s better :)

    pyr: you’re welcome. i think it’s been awesome honestly but i’m not one to push people into things unless they want to do them… okay except for pilates :)

    i’ll keep reporting if it’s interesting otherwise it will be passing comments :)

    it is interesting to see that i never lost that look of wonder isn’t it?

    Comment by sassinak — August 10, 2006 @ 9:39 am | Reply

  15. kj: i know, it’s hard to believe the colours are real… but since the toddler is clearly real coloured everything else must be as well…

    heh, me neither babe.

    hubris: yeah, me too… it’s my second favourite childhood pic or me!

    nat: yeah me too since i got into the mid thirties… man when i was younger they were like eight or nine days long and only a few times a year. keep us posted k?

    Comment by sassinak — August 10, 2006 @ 9:41 am | Reply

  16. Okay idea of fasting ….waiting the 10 minutes in the morning before the Tim Horton’s opens up in my building …

    Hun ….you rock.

    Nic pic ….shame we have to grow up and become …….us ….hee hee
    Can’t wish you a HHNT with that picture ….it’s just to cute …..

    Comment by Spirit — August 10, 2006 @ 11:20 am | Reply

  17. you looked so cuteeeeeee, sass!

    Comment by stoned.nerd — August 10, 2006 @ 12:10 pm | Reply

  18. spirit: i can totally sympathise with that sentiment, that’s me the other 358 days of the year!


    it’s way too cute to call it half nekkid but it does expose my inner child…

    nerd: thanks!!!

    it’s ridiculous isn’t it?

    Comment by sassinak — August 10, 2006 @ 1:30 pm | Reply

  19. Sass, you had better come off of that fast right away- it has made you shrink four feet and turned you blonde…

    oh wait… *reads post*… never mind…

    Comment by john — August 10, 2006 @ 1:36 pm | Reply

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    Comment by jo_jo — August 10, 2006 @ 1:52 pm | Reply

  21. ^that was me, I forgot to say, get a pot.

    OK, soup.

    Get a pot. Get one onion and chop it up in big chunks the size of dimes. Chop one carrot into round pieces the width of your little finger until they get bigger than quarters then cut those ones into half-moons. Beets, turnips, or rutebega can go in now too, cut up to the same size. Put it all in the pot with 2 cups of water. Turn the heat on to medium low and put a lid on it. If it boils noisily, turn it down. After 30 minutes add any more things that are soft and might be salad if you looked at them hard enough (turnip greens, beet greens, beans, kale, okra, parsley or whatever). Put any potatoes or squash you are using in then, too, cut into the same size pieces as the carrot (if you put it in before then they will just dissolve – OK if you like that kind of thing). I would suggest Italian lentils (they are kind of snot coloured) at this point too. Add some more water so that everything is covered. Cook on low another 10-25 minutes, it should be at that quiet boil again for at least 15 minutes, this time stir every 5 minutes or so. Taste a lentil to make sure they have gone soft. A minute or two before you want to eat it, stir in a handful of frozen peas. Turn off the heat when they rise to the top and enjoy.

    I hope you can follow it this way. Please email me for clarification if necessary. This is how I cook but I am not regular in many ways at all.


    Comment by jo_jo — August 10, 2006 @ 1:56 pm | Reply

  22. Oh I just realized I am too late. Never mind then!

    Cute picture.

    Comment by jo_jo — August 10, 2006 @ 1:59 pm | Reply

  23. john: hee. i know, and it made me cute!


    jo jo: interestingly i love the way you explain soup. and that’s basically what i did but i got your comment in time to stir in some peas! :)

    and it looks so good!

    (i’m waiting for cooling now)

    yeah but see next time i make soup? i’m following this recipe… and that’s awesome right?


    Comment by sassinak — August 10, 2006 @ 2:01 pm | Reply

  24. That really is a spectacular pic. I’m wondering though… going back to the subject of soup, have you done this before? Does yr body reject the food outright? Mine did. Badly.

    Comment by --spared-- — August 10, 2006 @ 3:57 pm | Reply

  25. spared: i know it’s great huh? my parents have a few pics that ridiculously excellent :)

    no i’ve never done it before but so far i’ve been following the directions and it’s been working okay. i think maybe because it took me an hour or so to drink a half litre of soup.

    anyway, so far it feels pretty good although weird as heck. it’s strange to have weight in my digestive tract.

    what did your body do?

    Comment by sassinak — August 10, 2006 @ 4:45 pm | Reply

  26. The pic, absolutely adorable! So surreal.

    I wish I had read this last night. I could have helped you with the soup. You can strain it after cooking and save the veggies for later when you can eat more solids. Is that what you did?

    Comment by SignGurl — August 10, 2006 @ 6:40 pm | Reply

  27. Ok I’m a little late to the game so no sense in trying to give you recipe hints. Actually I’m surprised it didn’t mention cabbage since that’s usually the staple of vegetable soups.

    Where did you read about this fasting programme? You might have mentioned it in a prior post but I’ve been not so good with the keeping up lately.

    I love that photo, it looks like a really pretty dogwood tree or something and it’s just sooo beautiful against the perfect green of that lawn and the cute little imp that is baby Sass in the midst of it. Never lose that photo!

    Comment by JMai — August 10, 2006 @ 8:41 pm | Reply

  28. Terrible cramping…headaches, nausea at the smell of the food…

    Glad it worked out for you anyway. I may give it a go once I have the baby.

    Comment by --spared-- — August 10, 2006 @ 8:56 pm | Reply

  29. fairyland… hahahahahah. that’s so true.
    i still can’t get over the colors in that pic.

    Comment by terry — August 10, 2006 @ 9:35 pm | Reply

  30. Sass OMG that’s a very vivid picture, amazing!

    Stupid Question Warning; are you still blonde, but dye it or did your blonde slowly get darker as you got older? (I understand that you are not as dark naturally as in the picture)

    told you it was a stupid question…

    Glad to see all went well with the fast :)

    Comment by HuneeB — August 10, 2006 @ 9:39 pm | Reply

  31. wild eh? i was a strawberry blond when i was that age. and look at me now……..ah, don’t. with each kid my hair got darker and darker until it started to go grey. and now i’m a seriously middle aged authoritarian beyatch.

    Comment by gabriella — August 10, 2006 @ 10:33 pm | Reply

  32. sign: i know, that’s just how i feel about it myself.

    i wish i had posted this sooner, y’all gave some great advice that would have made my soup better. like i cooked it too hot and slightly scorched it… although it’s strangely delicious anyway.

    i think it’s very specific and easy to digest veg is all. i didn’t really read about it so much as watch my teacher do it and realise that it seemed like something i wanted to do. so then i looked up the one she did and went for it. :)

    i have no idea where that photo is, i should ask. and yeah, my parents are both great photogs.

    spared: damm girl that sucks. i’ve been dying to eat all day, in fact i cheated a bit and had a bite of potato salad (not supposed to have dairy)

    it did work out and it feels lovely, i’m sad it didn’t work for you. baby? how preggers are you?

    Comment by sassinak — August 11, 2006 @ 12:27 am | Reply

  33. “saturday and sunday? pretty shitty.”

    So to speak! hah!

    Sorry I missed the soup suggestion period. I’d go with brown lentils and no you don’t have to soak them first.

    The picture of you as a child is just amazing. You were so cute!

    I was thinking I might try a fast, but reading your reports I’ve decided not to. Its not the right time for me. Love reading about your fast though, so thanks for the posts.

    Comment by clarity — August 11, 2006 @ 12:32 am | Reply

  34. terry: yeah i guess it really is. and yeah, i still can’t get over them either!

    hunee: yeah i love it.

    nope, my hair just changed very fast when i was very young. if you look close you’ll see my eyes are still blue too in that pic. and my current pics are all natural me, i haven’t coloured my hair in years…

    why was it stupid?

    well it’s not over entirely, i have to be very careful for another thirty six hours at least… but yeah, it was awesome.

    gabi: i’m trying to picture you blonde and it isn’t working!

    wait your hair turned colour with pregnancy? you were still blonde as an adult?

    beyatch! rofl!

    Comment by sassinak — August 11, 2006 @ 12:33 am | Reply

  35. I duunno it seemed kind of stupid when I typed it?

    Comment by HuneeB — August 11, 2006 @ 1:30 am | Reply

  36. You’re beautiful! I love this picture.

    As far as the soup:

    Cook lightly = simmer… don’t do a raging boil or anything.

    You’ll want to throw in your beets, carrots, celery and potatoes and let them cook first until tender, then add your other veggies. If not, your squash and other soft veggies will turn to mush.

    Simmer til everything is tender and it should work out fine.

    Good luck sweetie :)

    Comment by RobynB — August 11, 2006 @ 12:29 pm | Reply

  37. clarity: well then i should have said pretty not shitty! *g*

    i used green lentils and i didn’t soak them first! i seem to have harvested the collective unconscious for this one!

    isn’t that pic freaking adorable? i can’t get over it!

    what about my reports has gotten you thinking you won’t do it now? and you’re welcome :)

    hunee; okay if you say so.

    robyn: thanks!

    i fucked it up and boiled and you can taste it, but it’s still pretty good.

    yeah my squash melted. i turned on the water, set it to boil and threw in the lentils. then i chopped and tossed in this order: beets, turnip, carrots, potatoes, italian parsley, celery, squash, bok choy, green onion, green tops of things and uh… i forget :)

    it boiled but it’s all yummy so who cares! :)


    Comment by sassinak — August 11, 2006 @ 6:06 pm | Reply

  38. i am checking your blog regularly.

    you are in good company! have you ever read this chick??

    Comment by logue like vogue — August 14, 2006 @ 11:03 am | Reply

  39. omg cutest baby picture ever!

    Comment by Matt Vella — August 16, 2006 @ 3:35 pm | Reply

  40. you are adorable.. as you are now.. :D

    as for your fasting experience.. wow… that is awesome sass!

    Comment by sugarpunk — August 26, 2006 @ 3:02 am | Reply

  41. logue: nope but she’s pretty funny!

    and thanks :)

    matt: i know, sick isn’t it?

    punk: thanks babe!

    yeah it was excellent and i totally recommend it.

    Comment by sassinak — August 26, 2006 @ 2:42 pm | Reply

  42. Fascinating. I’ve never fasted but this makes me want to, kinda. Great blog!

    Comment by Rrramone — September 3, 2006 @ 8:12 am | Reply

  43. rrramone that’s pretty high praise actually :)

    let me know if you ever do!

    Comment by sassinak — September 5, 2006 @ 12:26 am | Reply

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