snapshots of an idle mind

August 31, 2006

bipolar day

Filed under: Uncategorized — sassinak @ 11:58 pm

so i swear i’ll post more next month really i will… but see august has been this crazy month that started with a ragingly lazy long weekend and ends with a weekend of camping.

yes, of course labour day is in august, september starts on the tuesday after labour day. no that’s it. otherwise it’s not in the SUMMER.

in between there was a campout in hoot’s backyard and some sauble beach swimming, a lovely trip to seattle, a weekend in town doing a lot of nothing (and eating out) and now CAMPING!

*dance of camping joy*

there were supposed to be a few other folks coming like othercat’s partner and the other drummer from our band but they’re being jam tarts. as if we care, we’re going to eat like kings and drink royally (mmmm irish whiskey) and laze about and swim if we feel like it.

i’m bringing a BOOK! (don’t laugh, i’m bringing a textbook called ‘anatomy trains’) [oh god i’m a grown up] {bringing school books, yeesh, next you’ll start knitting} |would you all pipe the fuck down?!?! i’m trying to write a blog post already| *shakes head*

okay two books… the other one is called ‘dime store magic’ and it’s about a witch. i think that’s a stellar combination. one for when i’m not sober enough to comprehend latin words and one for when i am.

oh god, i’m learning latin. how did THAT fucking happen? somewhere, when i wasn’t looking, i started to like learning things. amazing that it took about fifteen years to knock the school out of my head and start learning again.

we are going to eat so well, god you guys have no idea what it’s like to go camping with othercat. one year? we woke up to snow and had pie for dessert before bed…

there’s marinated chicken and filet and steamed vegetables and delicious veggie sandwiches with hummus and avocado and … crap i need a snack. and trail mix and all sorts of nuts and tea and coffee and irish whiskey and… okay fine, i know i mentioned the whiskey already.

by the way? we’re FULLY aware that it’s going to rain and we don’t give a shit. in fact? if there’s no lightning we’ll go swimming in it.

and if you’ve never been swimming in the rain?

good god WHY NOT?

i have had a seriously stellar and yet horrid day today. i mean total ups and downs.

i won an argument with lululemon… without having to argue!
i taught a sent by the universe class that came out of nowhere.
i did a client who does rolfing and might send ME clients now.
*dance of joy*
i got a raise from one of my group class places.

i got in an argument a few months ago with this guy through my window. he would drive up and park and start to honk at someone.

at one am.

yeah, so i yelled at him and we got into argument after argument and then one day he ranted about me TO someone else, and how annoying i was and how i needed to get it through my head that i lived in toronto and that people made noise.

i decided that he was an asshole and that he had a point. so i shut up.

well then today i get home and harriet is out so i freak and check on mouse and faust and they’re fine so i go looking for her.

and i’m looking and not expecting much and then this guy walks up and he’s like ‘lose something?’

and i say ‘my cat’ and he realises eventually who i am and he’s like ‘you’re that girl?’ and i’m like ‘yup’ and he’s like ‘wow i never would have been so mean if i knew how sexy you were.’

i mean what? props to me on the sexiness anyway.

so i prop open my window and i go for dinner at othercat’s and i sort of assume harriet will come home and i abandon mouse at faust’s house…

and yeah, off to othercat’s and packing for camping and then i come home in a lovely mood and ready for the weekend and some fun…

and harriet isn’t home.

mouse insists on coming home but she isn’t going anywhere near the window so i made it kind of too skinny for her and i’m leaving it open for harriet. that little bitch.

i don’t think she’s coming back, there’s no sense of her here. i’ve looked around and called a little but i haven’t done much [aka wandered the alley for an hour]. i can’t really explain it. the window screen was open, the other two cats were here, it’s like this place wasn’t big enough for her anymore.

yeah you all think i’m projecting but that cat named herself after houdini by escaping to the outside twice in the same day. after never having done it before.

she lived here because she chose to live here. i hope that she chooses to live here again… i’m just not holding my breath. i feel weird though going camping tomorrow and all with my cat gone. aren’t i supposed to be crying and stuff?

i guess part of me believes that she’ll come back.

and part of me knows that she won’t. i wonder which one of us is right.

ah well, i’ll leave a space for her in the window and hope she’s here when i get back… and of course i’ll call the vet and the humane society. i just… i’m not worried somehow [and neither is mouse], she left of her own volition and we’ll see if she comes back or not.

hope so.

[yes, of course i’m really sad]



  1. so where was the horrible day in all that? Well other than the cat but she will come home when she is ready…cats do that. Maybe she loves you so much she went hunting for a present…

    Comment by HuneeB — September 1, 2006 @ 2:17 am | Reply

  2. have fun camping (like you won’t? LOL) … and sorry to hear about the little feline escape artist … I’ll keep some fingers crossed, even if, personally, I don’t like cats so much.


    Comment by DZER — September 1, 2006 @ 3:40 am | Reply

  3. Have a wonderful weekend!!!

    All that food sounds great…….I’m hungry now

    Comment by Kristen — September 1, 2006 @ 6:32 am | Reply

  4. Enjoy yout weekend!! Cats have a mind of their own, so I think your right, she’ll either be back, or she won’t. Ours has gone missing too. I don’t think she’s coming back. It’s just been too long.
    I’ll be back when I don’t have 2 kiddies in the house who are making my head hurt right (sleep over!) and catch up on the last few posts. :)
    Cheers, Kelly

    Comment by debambam — September 1, 2006 @ 6:47 am | Reply

  5. hunee it was an amazing day, but i still ended it with tears in my eyes and concern in my heart… and frankly, even if i think she left voluntarily doesn’t make me less sad you know?

    dzer: heh, fair point.

    yeah thanks, i appreciate that!

    *gasps for breath and hugs back!*

    kj: thanks babe… and you know, feel free to come camping with us…

    deb: yeah they really do. and i don’t think she’s coming back, i can’t explain it but i’m pretty sure…

    how long has yours been awol?

    eeep sleepovers! it makes not having a kid slightly easier… missing those!


    Comment by sassinak — September 1, 2006 @ 9:09 am | Reply

  6. Poor Sass… I’m sorry honey. I know its hard to have a critter go missing.


    Comment by RobynB — September 1, 2006 @ 9:41 am | Reply

  7. OK…I am back and I have so much reading to catch up on. For now, though, *huggers* sorry about the pet. It’s so heartbreaking when that happens. I lost a doggie once and I couldn’t even eat for days. Sadness supreme. Really.

    August was definitely a crazy month. It was good, though…just a lot of changes and upheaval.

    Camping sounds like a really good time. I think my time off gave me some perspective on enjoying stuff outside the realm of school, work, and writing. I think I really needed that. So I am going to try to include things like that in my regular schedule now.


    Comment by Natalia — September 1, 2006 @ 10:30 am | Reply

  8. I had an escape artist cat once. He was a huge black cat we named Darth Vader. We tried to keep him indoors, but the force was just too strong with him I guess. After one disappearance we had to spring him from the pound (someone trapped him). Another time he disappeared for 2 or 3 days and then showed up one morning on our back porch completely mangled. The vet thought he lost a fight with a racoon. He also lost vision in one eye after that little adventure. After that we took every precaution to keep him from getting out but he still escaped. That story has an unhappy ending, so I’ll end now.

    The cat we got after Vader is so timid she will barely put a paw outside even if you leave the door wide open. Some felines are more domesticated than others, I guess. Instinct and nature are hard things to overcome. If a kitty wants to get out and prowl, it will find a way to get out and prowl.

    I really hope your friend comes back to you. Best of luck, Sass.

    Comment by john — September 1, 2006 @ 10:43 am | Reply

  9. I think you’re right, Sass- cats are the ultimate nomads, and opportunistic ones at that. They always seem to make ends meet. She’ll be back next time she swings through there. Maybe she’s moseyed on back to the place she was before. I’m sure she’s got her hobo over-the-shoulder bag packed and she’s checking out the alley scene. But I’m sorry for you because you now have to miss her. That’s never easy for the one who waits at home.

    And, um, slam to the knitters out there! I’m on my way out as we speak to pick up some new chunky yarn to make myself a kick ass long/skinny scarf for the fall. Don’t knock it till you try it. It actually feels very creative and fruitful. You get something worth keeping at the end of all that clicking. It also makes tv watching feel less disgusting.
    (Another aside… I took Latin at school and love the fact that I can drop that shit. “Salve, ego sum Lisa!” or in response to Lucy’s disappearance, “Canis est in via!!!” it never gets tired.
    Long live Latin, the so-called Dead Language!!!)

    Comment by Sweet Li'l Gal — September 1, 2006 @ 11:21 am | Reply

  10. robyn: it really is… i miss her but i never expect to see her again…

    *hugs* thanks.

    nat: welcome back babe, was it a good break?

    *huggles* thanks and yes, yes it is. i’m just not nearly as stressed as i would expect to be even though i’m sad.

    august was nuts but GOOD! i’m thinking yours was even better…. *dirty leer and a wink*

    i think camping will be great but spoiled a bit by concern for lost harriet…

    john: i named her harriet for a reason… after harry houdini… and she named herself.

    i’m sad to hear about your unhappy ending and i truly hope hers is better but i’m not expecting it…

    yeah mouse doesn’t leave even if you invite her to. well seh does but she comes back as soon as the door closes behind her :)

    i hope so too but i do not expect it…

    Comment by sassinak — September 1, 2006 @ 11:51 am | Reply

  11. !!!

    Hugs to you and Mouse, and I hope Harriet shows up a couple of weeks from now, maybe with a couple of scars, maybe with a couple of kittens, but surely happy to see you again.

    Have a great time in the Nature!


    Comment by Johnny Canuck — September 1, 2006 @ 11:51 am | Reply

  12. sweet gal: yeah it’s totally true, i’m sure she’s fine and living in a fine home with lots of stairs and tall things to jump on. or she’s dead or she’s wandering or she’s coming home. hopefully she’ll visit.

    i don’t think she went back, they abandoned her to the pound at five months of age…

    i do miss her for certain, and it’s never easy whether it’s human or cat weirdly enough.

    omg i so didn’t mean to slam the knitters, it’s just you get an image of a granny. funny story, all the knitters i know are younger than i am. hell when i was in college I used to knit… but i never learned to cast on so my poor sweater sits there with the back done and nothing else :)

    latin can’t die, it’s the root of most other language…

    johnny: !!!

    thanks babe, i hope she shows up too… fortunately she’s spayed so not with any kittens. mouse isn’t worried, she’s just sad, it’s part of why i think harriet left…

    thanks man!

    Comment by sassinak — September 1, 2006 @ 1:51 pm | Reply

  13. Break was awesome. I had not had a proper break like that in a while. I completely disconnected from almost everything. I didn’t check work mail except once and talked to a coworker only once and because I wanted to know about something that was going on. So yeah…a proper break indeed. A lot of fun *grins back* A LOT.

    I have not been camping since 1998. And even then it wasn’t proper camping. Mr. Hagfish seems to have a weird love of the outdoors, so I am thinking we might end up doing that at some point.

    I spent some time with Axl during my time off and really realized how much I miss the little furball. I hope she gets home soon safely.


    Comment by Natalia — September 1, 2006 @ 2:39 pm | Reply

  14. I can’t tell you how much I love this post. The strange confrontation/conversation with mean honking guy, the joy over camping and raises and renewed love of learning, the acceptance of the runaway cat but hope for her return.

    I’m dazzled by this post, seriously. I think it’s one of the best you’ve ever written and I can’t quite put my finger on why, but I’ve had a hell of a day and I’m feeling very serene and happy now that I’ve read this.

    Have a fantastic weekend and I hope harriet finds her way back through the window. -hug-

    Comment by JMai — September 1, 2006 @ 5:43 pm | Reply

  15. sounds like a grand weekend, even if camping is involved. (not really my favorite thing. i’m definitely a city girl.)

    come back, harriet!

    and the loud guy? wha??? at least he had the good sense to note how hot you are.

    Comment by terry — September 1, 2006 @ 8:22 pm | Reply

  16. Harriet, go home! I know that’s got to weigh heavy on your mind. Sorry to hear this.

    Swimming in the rain? I love that! Can’t remember when was the last time I did it, but I remember doing it several times and it’s great! Have fun darlin, laugh, love and enjoy yourself! “sexy” :)

    Comment by kathi — September 2, 2006 @ 8:58 am | Reply

  17. Hmmmm…cats…I need dinner. I hope it all turns out for you. kathi is looking for a new cat, in case you have an extra one…

    Comment by Casually Me — September 2, 2006 @ 6:28 pm | Reply

  18. awwww the cat’ll be back my dear, unless some family trapped her.

    we had a cat growing up that was an outdoor cat and she would disappear for weeks at a time, and then magically re-appear.

    Comment by da buttah — September 4, 2006 @ 11:56 am | Reply

  19. Hurrican Ernesto wasn’t too much of a problem. The shelter was rock solid, and our spirits weren’t even dampened. The only let down of the whole weekend was sticking our toes in the water, realizing it was inviting and warm, and not going in when we had the chance. We never made it back to the water in a state where we could jump in and swim.

    The food and whiskey was just grand though. Thanx for all the kind wishes everyone.

    The best news of all is Harriet did come back. Sassinak has a story to tell in her next post.

    Comment by othercat — September 4, 2006 @ 4:59 pm | Reply

  20. Hope you are having a great weekend camping. I guess I should say I hope you had a great weekend camping. Sorry I have been so far behind lately, it must be the time of year.

    Comment by Leigh — September 4, 2006 @ 8:43 pm | Reply

  21. nat: i’m so glad, i think you needed that break something fierce, least that was the impressions i was getting from your posts.

    and i’m glad to hear it was as much fun as you were hoping.

    i freaking love camping, i especially love it with a double bed and flannel sheets. i am a GIRLY camper and i like my creature comforts. however if you give me those i will live in the nature for days on end with happiness.

    she did… little bitch :)

    jmai: really? i’ll have to read it again right now. it is sort of all over the place things isn’t it? my day really did just keep bouncing up and down, it was really strange.

    i don’t really know why you were dazzled by it but i know that rereading it just now i got a rollicking sense of joy from it and if i’d had a shitty day it might just have cheered me up too.

    and she did… through the window next door! *hug*

    terry: well i’m a spoiled camper and do things like eat steak and sleep in flannel sheets. but i take your point nonetheless. :)

    it was grand!

    and she did come back btw. and yeah, how weird is that with that guy? i think he has a crush on me now!

    kathi: she may have heard you… she’s home now.

    i didn’t swim in the rain this weekend but i love it too! and we had a blast, thanks darlin’!

    Comment by sassinak — September 5, 2006 @ 12:19 am | Reply

  22. cas: no she isn’t, she got a kitten!

    elle: you’re right and she was. i might have to get her an invisileash!

    my sister’s cat left and never came back… goes both ways i guess

    othercat: it was a soft hurricane :)

    yeah i really can’t believe we didn’t swim, what was up with that?

    leigh: we did!

    no worries, it’s september, everyone is off a little…

    Comment by sassinak — September 5, 2006 @ 12:21 am | Reply

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