snapshots of an idle mind

September 5, 2008

feast days

Filed under: Uncategorized — sassinak @ 9:50 am


it’s funny this being self-employed thing you know?  one minute you’re starving and paying for books with twonies [canadian two dollar coins] and the next you’re depositing more than fifteen hundred dollars in cheques from your clients and your piggy bank has spare cash in it again.

it’s a truly odd experience if you had gotten used to twice monthly pay cheques that always came out to the same amount or so.

even odder?  i will deposit the same amount again in the next couple of weeks and suddenly have my rent paid two months in advance.  the same rent i’m barely paying this month.

the thing you don’t really understand when you become self-employed is just how weird it is to have no financial stability at all and just how much pressure that actually puts on your shoulders all.the.time.

all.the.time.  even when the credit card is paid down to zero and the bank account has nice amounts of cash in it there is nonetheless this little piece that knows *exactly* how far that money will go and when more is expected.

furthermore that same piece always expects every single client to quit without notice.  kind of a shitty thing to have wandering around your shoulders you know?


in other news i recently attended the eaglewood folk festival in lovely pefferlaw ontario and i cannot think of a better way to start a vacation.  just can’t.

it was like i took two weeks off instead of one because i was so relaxed by the end of the first weekend.

course hanging at the farm with my parents was sure a nice way to spend the REST of my vacation!


so i’ve ranked the festivals i attended this year, ready?

mariposa: best musical lineup

hillside: best food

summerfolk: comfy like an old shoe

eaglewood: best all around time


and good christ is the weather ever awesome this week!



  1. Interesting perspective. I’m actually working toward self-employment. My husband will continue to have a regular paycheck, so things won’t rest completely on my shoulders, but I know it will be a big change for me. I’ve been working for 19 years now, so the steadiness of a paycheck is pretty ingrained.

    Comment by Jen — October 3, 2008 @ 5:27 pm | Reply

  2. jen: yeah it’s amazing how used you get to having a paycheque. somehow you almost expect it even when you know it isn’t coming.

    hope this helps clarify your quest a little anyway :)

    Comment by sassinak — October 8, 2008 @ 5:45 pm | Reply

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